Friday, December 30, 2005
Burden of Responsibility!!!
I felt like crap yesterday. My uncle got mad at me coz the xbox got busted. My cousins apparently plugged it in a 220 socket, unfortunately I was responsible for the whole thing. I'm not trying to excuses, but I was really doing a lot of things so i kinda the xbox until my uncle called and told that the xbox was broken. Now I know how it feels when those cartoon characters shrink coz of guilt and the person mad them grows bigger. Feel a little better now, considering kuya told me that its ok. I wish I still have my happy pills!!!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Merry Christmas and to all a good night!!! Okay, I might be a little to late in saying this (Damn computer have to break down!! #@!#%%@%@). But nothing you can do about it. So, let us be a little careful with what we put in our mouths coz it will go directly to our waist. hehehe!!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Cursed you Damien Rice!!!
Can't stop singing "Cannonball". Old feelings on how good it was to be in love coming back. Ahhh! how great was the feeling of being in the arms of the person you love. Have to forget someone and move on coz of some reasons. Then this song keep playing in my head and i can't stop singing( still singing while typing this). what the heck here are the lyrics for those who don't know the song.
"Cannonball"
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
"Cannonball"
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
Sleep
"Sleep- A natural and periodic state of rest during which consciousness of the world is suspended."
When you get to experience what i've experience, sleep is one of the sweetest things in life. Well i used to not sleep at if i can help it all, the only i sleep i get was my body forces me already and my sleep , my record is two weeks straight. Oh man was it like hell! It literally drove me crazy. hehehe!!! Now sleep for me is more a gift i really nourish. I still not sleep regularly, but i now try to get sleep as much as possible. I would rather face nightmares in sleep than talking shadows when you're awake. So for those who are NOT sleeping right, turn off the computer and go sleep. NOW!!! hehehe!!!
When you get to experience what i've experience, sleep is one of the sweetest things in life. Well i used to not sleep at if i can help it all, the only i sleep i get was my body forces me already and my sleep , my record is two weeks straight. Oh man was it like hell! It literally drove me crazy. hehehe!!! Now sleep for me is more a gift i really nourish. I still not sleep regularly, but i now try to get sleep as much as possible. I would rather face nightmares in sleep than talking shadows when you're awake. So for those who are NOT sleeping right, turn off the computer and go sleep. NOW!!! hehehe!!!
Monday, December 19, 2005
Songs playing in my Head
My Stupid Mouth
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, it's another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
Oh another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could i forget mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh whats a boy to do?
I guess i better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again(x3)
Starting now
The next one is the weird one for me. Don't know why. But heck, Im enjoying it!
Save The Last Dance For Me
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, it's another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
Oh another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could i forget mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh whats a boy to do?
I guess i better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again(x3)
Starting now
The next one is the weird one for me. Don't know why. But heck, Im enjoying it!
Save The Last Dance For Me
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.
I have Survived!!!
Yehey!!!Have survived a harrowing weekend filled with hate and resentment for myself for the things i have done. That I haven't really tried to change myself that i only cared for was myself and what i felt i needed at the moment. Thanks to my friend who made me realize that there are things in life that more important than our own desires. At first, I was angry but I then realized that she had saved my soul from something I would regret someday. Eventhough our relationship as friends would forever be marred by the events that has transpired, I would always be thankful for her saving my soul.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Conversations
Found a conversation (or a part of it) in a blog of a friend. Never realized that thing made an impact on her that she was laughing so hard. Hehehehe! I've just realize that i can funny.
p.s.
She doesn't want to talk anymore for reasons I will tell to myself! hehehe!
p.s.
She doesn't want to talk anymore for reasons I will tell to myself! hehehe!
Friday, December 16, 2005
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Studying does this to you.
My sister actually took this picture. She said that i look like i was studying but when she called i was sound asleep.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Song of the Day
Mr. Curiosity
Music by Jason Mraz and Lester Mendez
Words by Jason Mraz and Dennis Morris
Hey Mr. Curiosity
is it true that they’ve been saying about you
Are you killing me?
You took care of the cat already
and for those who think it’s heavy
Is it the truth? Or is it only gossip?
Call it mystery or anything
just as long as you call me.
I sent the message on,
did you get it when I left it?
See this catastrophic event
it wasn’t meant to mean no harm
But to think there’s nothing wrong is a problem.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
Love is a mystery. Mr. Curious, come back to me
(I’m) Mr. Waiting, ever patient can’t you see
I’m the same the way you left me
in a hurry to spell check me
And I’m underlined already
in envy green and pencil red
I’ve forgotten what you’ve said,
will you stop working for the dead
And return, Mr. Curious,
I need some inspiration.
It’s my birthday
and I cannot find no cause for celebration.
The scenario is grave but I’ll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
This love is a mystery, Mr. Curiosity,
Be Mr. Please Do Come And Find Me.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
This love is a mystery, Mr. Curiosity,
Be Mr. Please Do Come And Find Me.
Love is blinding if the timing’s never right.
But who am I to beg for difference?
Finding love in just an instant I don’t mind.
At least I tried.
I tried.
Music by Jason Mraz and Lester Mendez
Words by Jason Mraz and Dennis Morris
Hey Mr. Curiosity
is it true that they’ve been saying about you
Are you killing me?
You took care of the cat already
and for those who think it’s heavy
Is it the truth? Or is it only gossip?
Call it mystery or anything
just as long as you call me.
I sent the message on,
did you get it when I left it?
See this catastrophic event
it wasn’t meant to mean no harm
But to think there’s nothing wrong is a problem.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
Love is a mystery. Mr. Curious, come back to me
(I’m) Mr. Waiting, ever patient can’t you see
I’m the same the way you left me
in a hurry to spell check me
And I’m underlined already
in envy green and pencil red
I’ve forgotten what you’ve said,
will you stop working for the dead
And return, Mr. Curious,
I need some inspiration.
It’s my birthday
and I cannot find no cause for celebration.
The scenario is grave but I’ll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
This love is a mystery, Mr. Curiosity,
Be Mr. Please Do Come And Find Me.
I’m looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it’s making me cry
This love is a mystery, Mr. Curiosity,
Be Mr. Please Do Come And Find Me.
Love is blinding if the timing’s never right.
But who am I to beg for difference?
Finding love in just an instant I don’t mind.
At least I tried.
I tried.
Mom's Xmas Party
Pia's group
Pinoy Big Brother group
Jackson Five Group
Ma still working even at the party
Ma and Pa after the work.
Damn, I look ugly in that pic. It like beauty and the beast live.
My mom really likes her (yipee!!!)
Thursday, December 08, 2005
CHECK THIS OUT
Didn't sleep last night, but a friend was there to chat with. He recommended this sites. It was sad and dark, but somehow most of us can relate to it.
This one is my favorite.
http://www.lukechueh.com/index.html
This one is my favorite.
http://www.lukechueh.com/index.html
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Song of the Day
Life Is Wonderful Lyrics
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
It takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la it is so...
It takes some silence to make sound
And It takes a loss before you found it
And It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la it is so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full Circle
Wonderful
Friday, November 18, 2005
ROSE ONLINE
Started playing this online game on a recommendation from a friend. Honestly had a lot fun on it. Just hope it doesn't turn into a addiction. hehehe
http://www.roseonline.ph/
Started my studies again, and honestly having fun in school.
http://www.roseonline.ph/
Started my studies again, and honestly having fun in school.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Back to School
Going to study again, after a turmoil in my life. I am ready to face everything, and damn everything that gets on my way!!! Feeling old lately when i went to school. Hehehehe, the return of the comeback of urim hernandez.
Friday, November 04, 2005
NEED HELP!!!
This a part in my life that when i become self destructive. i trying to stand up but the memory of her is dragging me down. could someone help me. i really need im scared that i might break down again pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
QUIZ
Can't sleep so i decided to take some tests
Angelic Evil
What type of evil being are you inside?
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Dominant Personality: Regret
Good Traits: You don't forget what's
happened. You take the time to yourself to [try
to] get over it.
Bad Traits: You never do get over it.
You're living in the past. You can't change it.
People see you as: A shadow (you're always
left behind), honest, and wise. You may act
like you've been through horrible ordeals that
no one can relate to. The honesty is almost a
plus, but being too honest is your problem. You
don't like being lied to, so you choose not to
lie either.
You're Most Like: Protected. After what
you've experienced you closed up, trying to
figure out what's wrong with you. You're more
extroverted to cover up your feelings, unlike a
protected person.
You Need More: Disappointment. This may
sound off, but you do need it. You have to get
out of the past, and focus on the future.
What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results)
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Your death will be suicide....Most likely because
people won't except you or love you or because
you hate life itself...You have constent
thoughts of suicide daily....and you plan when
you will. Someday it will happen....You most
likely die alone in your house...with nothing
but dark music playing. You'll probably write a
sucide note and die right by your bed side....
How Will You Die And Why? .:Beautiful Dark Pics:.
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SOLAR EXALTED: You are a chosen of the Unconquered
Sun.
The SOLAR EXALTED are the heroic defenders of
justice, the natural rulers of Creation and the
bringers of wonders. In the First Age they were
betrayed and destroyed, but now, after hundreds
of years, they are back to save the world of
its many dangers, fighting the enemies of
Creation and taking the control back from the
Terrestrial Exalted, their betrayers.
The SOLAR EXALTED are the ultimate heroes and are
here to guide Creation to a new age of
resplendent gold and brightness. However, their
multiple enemies are prepared to offer a great
battle and there are some ancient creatures who
still remember why the children of the Sun were
killed the first time... the real reason for
their purge from Creation.
Exalted: -What kind of being would you be in the Age of Sorrows?-
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You are a Dawn Caste! The power of the Unconquered
Sun lets you attain new levels of ass-kicking
power!
What Caste Of Solar Exalted Are You?
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Angelic Evil
What type of evil being are you inside?
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Dominant Personality: Regret
Good Traits: You don't forget what's
happened. You take the time to yourself to [try
to] get over it.
Bad Traits: You never do get over it.
You're living in the past. You can't change it.
People see you as: A shadow (you're always
left behind), honest, and wise. You may act
like you've been through horrible ordeals that
no one can relate to. The honesty is almost a
plus, but being too honest is your problem. You
don't like being lied to, so you choose not to
lie either.
You're Most Like: Protected. After what
you've experienced you closed up, trying to
figure out what's wrong with you. You're more
extroverted to cover up your feelings, unlike a
protected person.
You Need More: Disappointment. This may
sound off, but you do need it. You have to get
out of the past, and focus on the future.
What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results)
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Your death will be suicide....Most likely because
people won't except you or love you or because
you hate life itself...You have constent
thoughts of suicide daily....and you plan when
you will. Someday it will happen....You most
likely die alone in your house...with nothing
but dark music playing. You'll probably write a
sucide note and die right by your bed side....
How Will You Die And Why? .:Beautiful Dark Pics:.
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SOLAR EXALTED: You are a chosen of the Unconquered
Sun.
The SOLAR EXALTED are the heroic defenders of
justice, the natural rulers of Creation and the
bringers of wonders. In the First Age they were
betrayed and destroyed, but now, after hundreds
of years, they are back to save the world of
its many dangers, fighting the enemies of
Creation and taking the control back from the
Terrestrial Exalted, their betrayers.
The SOLAR EXALTED are the ultimate heroes and are
here to guide Creation to a new age of
resplendent gold and brightness. However, their
multiple enemies are prepared to offer a great
battle and there are some ancient creatures who
still remember why the children of the Sun were
killed the first time... the real reason for
their purge from Creation.
Exalted: -What kind of being would you be in the Age of Sorrows?-
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You are a Dawn Caste! The power of the Unconquered
Sun lets you attain new levels of ass-kicking
power!
What Caste Of Solar Exalted Are You?
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
COLOR QUIZ
Took a color quiz. Here are the results.
That sounds a lot like me. At least we know the problem, time to have a solution.
 | urim took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Suffering from the effects of those things which a..."
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That sounds a lot like me. At least we know the problem, time to have a solution.
Update on my Life
Well haven't felt relax and good about myself for a while. So things are really looking up, considering the fact i was flat on my back anyway just want to give my self a pat on my back
Monday, October 17, 2005
Songs for her
Sleeping To Dream
words by jason mraz
music by jason mraz & peter stuart
I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down.
As I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes and what a beautiful sight
I'm sleeping to dream about you
I'm so tired of having to live without you
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired
I found myself in the riches (Your eyes, your lips, your hair.) Well you were everywhere
But I woke up in the ditches. I hit the light and I thought you might be here
but you were nowhere. You were nowhere at home.
As I lay me back to sleep
Lord I pray that I can keep
Sleeping to dream about you
I'm so tired of having to live without you
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired
(It's just a little a lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night.)
Sleeping to dream about you
I'm so tired of having to live without you
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired
This one's for you April
SO FAR SO GOOD
Well finally dealt with my issues with my religion. yes, i'm officially disfellowshipped from ny church. but honestly felt good about it. starting my life in he right foot right now. still in love with her. but what the heck im enjoying my life right now to care about it. except for the dreaming of her part every night all is well. anyway, thank god for peace of mind.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
New Start
I realize something last night. It wasn't my fault. I gave it all. I had to sacrifice everything in my life for her. So feel much better now. I still love her and may always will, but that doesn't mean I can find someone else. So I have decided to find someone whom i can trust and love. And as my dad says someone who stand by my side no matter what. So God help in this step I'm gonna make.
Crap!!! I'm getting old. Turning 23 next saturday. Well been depress for years now. Experience a lot things that i wish to forget, but hell that life i have to move on and do something about. I have tried to stand up a lot of times and have kept on falling flat on my face but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. No, I have more reasons now to stand up and do my dreams.
Last night had a discussion with my cousin on drive home about my being nice to people and me not taking aggresive action against people who are both idiots and insecure (hehehe that has bitterness in it). Joseph argument is that I have to fight fire with fire which I can really do if the people I care about are concern. I can also say I can really say mean things if I want (so don't push, you know who you are). Then, I reason out something that a friend told me that simple things are for simple people. Another one is from my auntie who once said "An pumapatol sa tanga ay mas tanga". And finally, something I read " Don't fight with fools, they will drag you to their level and beat you with experience.
Crap!!! I'm getting old. Turning 23 next saturday. Well been depress for years now. Experience a lot things that i wish to forget, but hell that life i have to move on and do something about. I have tried to stand up a lot of times and have kept on falling flat on my face but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. No, I have more reasons now to stand up and do my dreams.
Last night had a discussion with my cousin on drive home about my being nice to people and me not taking aggresive action against people who are both idiots and insecure (hehehe that has bitterness in it). Joseph argument is that I have to fight fire with fire which I can really do if the people I care about are concern. I can also say I can really say mean things if I want (so don't push, you know who you are). Then, I reason out something that a friend told me that simple things are for simple people. Another one is from my auntie who once said "An pumapatol sa tanga ay mas tanga". And finally, something I read " Don't fight with fools, they will drag you to their level and beat you with experience.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Songs
Singing this songs quite often lately
You & I Both
words & music by jason mraz
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of
and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.
Back to You
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
over you
I'm never over
over you
something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
with your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that I'll see of you
it's the least that you could not do
oh I will
leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
leave the light on
for me too
back to me
I know that it comes
back to me
doesn't it scare you
your will is not as strong
as it used to be
additional lyrics and intro/outros
...doesn't it scare you, doesn't it piss you off...
I'm weaker than you know
I'm swimming in a sea of faces
trying to find my way to you
but it's no use, in a crowded room
where everybody wants you
You & I Both
words & music by jason mraz
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of
and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.
Back to You
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
over you
I'm never over
over you
something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
with your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that I'll see of you
it's the least that you could not do
oh I will
leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
leave the light on
for me too
back to me
I know that it comes
back to me
doesn't it scare you
your will is not as strong
as it used to be
additional lyrics and intro/outros
...doesn't it scare you, doesn't it piss you off...
I'm weaker than you know
I'm swimming in a sea of faces
trying to find my way to you
but it's no use, in a crowded room
where everybody wants you
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Music Videos
Yup, Im like the guy singing. Well at least im not the guy playing the keyboard. The link doesn't seem to be working so this is the address.
http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/bunny.php
http://albinoblacksheep.com/flash/bunny.php
TOO MUCH THINKING AGAIN!
Im been doing a lot of thinking. Trying to figure out what's bugging me the past few days. Well, the good thing is I met this girl, who for the first time I didn't have that feeling that i wish "she" was there instead the girl. I really enjoyed being with her. But am i ready now? I still love "her", wouldn't it be cheating on this new girl, well i haven't been doing anything. aside from the fact that I already ask her to go out with me. well lets see what happens and hope for the best.
One more, job interview tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Hey its puerta galera for a month.
One more, job interview tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Hey its puerta galera for a month.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
HOME
Haven't been home for two weeks now. Couldn't stand being there in the first place. Nobody home anyway so no big deal really. One more thing, keep on dreaming about her lately. Does this mean i'm still in love with her. man this stinks. how can i go on if i still head over heels for her. anyway gonna go out later, hope something good would come out of it.
Friday, May 13, 2005
EEEVIIIIIILLLLL
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VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY EVIL | 94% | ||
Evil | 81% | ||
Not Evil At All | 38% |
Exactly how EVIL are you?
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Spongy
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Spongebob Squarepants | 81% | ||
Sandy | 75% | ||
Larry | 63% | ||
Plankton | 50% | ||
Gary | 38% | ||
Patrick Star | 25% | ||
Squidward Tenticals | 19% | ||
Mr. Krabbs | 0% |
which spongebob character are u
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INVADE THE WORLD
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The Allmighty Tallest | 100% | ||
Zim | 100% | ||
Dib | 67% | ||
Gir | 67% | ||
Gaz | 67% | ||
Professor Membrane | 33% | ||
Ms. Bitters | 33% |
Which Invader Zim Charecter are You?
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BY THE POWER OF GRAY SKULL!!!
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Heman | 67% | ||
Voltron | 58% | ||
Transformers | 50% | ||
Strawberry Shortcake | 33% | ||
Shera | 0% | ||
Smurf | 0% | ||
Thundercats | 0% |
Which 1980's Cartoon Character are you?
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
Naruto Craze
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You believe that anything can be achieved through hard work. You can’t be the best at everything, so you have decided to master one skill better than anyone. Feeling constant need to prove yourself, you tend to be competitive and a little hard for yourself.
Rock Lee | 94% | ||
Sasuke | 81% | ||
Hinata | 81% | ||
Kakashi | 81% | ||
Iruka | 69% | ||
Genma | 69% | ||
Shikamaru | 69% | ||
Neji | 44% | ||
Naruto | 31% | ||
TenTen | 31% |
Which Naruto ninja are you most like?
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I'm fuzzy eyebrows
MALKAV'S CHILD
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Malkavian | 92% | ||
Tremere | 83% | ||
Nosferatu | 75% | ||
Gangrel | 71% | ||
Brujah | 54% | ||
Ventrue | 54% | ||
Toreador | 38% |
What vampire clan do you belong to?
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Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Exalted
You scored as Malfean. You are a Malfean! The Malfeans are Primordials that were slain during the younger Gods' rebellion and were later used to form the prison for the Yozis. Not quite dead and wholly not alive, the undead Malfeans wish for nothing other than release from pain-- a release they can't have until the entirety of Creation is tipped into the Void. They'll use anyone to accomplish that end, even the other Yozis, the Deathlords, and the Exalted.
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This sucks, I'm not even playable
Romantic eh!
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Romantic Kisser | 94% | ||
Dont quit your day job... | 38% | ||
Yippy Ki Yay! | 38% |
How good do you kiss?
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now if i only can find someone to kiss
Very accurate
You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.
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DEATH
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You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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aww, I wanted to just disapear.
SLEEPING BEAUTY
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You scored as Sleeping Beauty. Your alter ego is Princess Aurora, a.k.a. Sleeping Beauty! You are beautiful and enchanting, and as sweet as ever.
Sleeping Beauty | 75% | ||
The Beast | 69% | ||
Donald Duck | 63% | ||
Ariel | 56% | ||
Peter Pan | 50% | ||
Goofy | 44% | ||
Cinderella | 38% | ||
Cruella De Ville | 31% | ||
Pinocchio | 31% | ||
Snow White | 25% |
Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Hmmm, I think i really need to go out with girls more often
Could it be
Went out with an old friend last night and seems I can't stop thinking her. Well for one she did look really beautiful. Something I never realize until yesterday. And the best part is I really felt at ease being with her and I was able to share things about myself that I've never shared with anyone. I just hope things go right now. Maybe there's hope for me.
Songs
I found myself singing this songs over and over again.
LONELY NO MORE
Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you?ll always be this way?
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
Well I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
Now it?s hard for me
When my heart?s still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it?s harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can?t we just try?
I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
What if I was good to you?
What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise?
What if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you?
I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
YOU AND ME
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
LONELY NO MORE
Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you?ll always be this way?
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
Well I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
Now it?s hard for me
When my heart?s still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it?s harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can?t we just try?
I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
What if I was good to you?
What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise?
What if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you?
I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list
I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely any more
YOU AND ME
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
Friday, April 15, 2005
Last day of the Real Me
Well this is goodbye to everyone. I have to go somewhere no one will find me (I'm not gonna kill myself. Ok). It seems everyone wants Urim to come back. So even if i have to hide myself its ok. As long that everyone will stop making a problem that will have to do. So all future posts here is what is happening inside me. And the only one who'll ever know are the people who accidentally find my blog (like that would happen).
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Damn Spywares
A spyware has again infected my pc. Afterall the things i installed in this computer. Something has installed itself and it seems that I cant get rid of it. I hope the people who make these things die! I tell you, they should DIE!!!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Song Like To Share
Strong
My breath smells of a thousand fags
And when I'm drunk I dance like me Dad
I've started to dress a bit like him
Early morning when I wake up
I look like Kiss but without the make up
And thats a good line to take it to The bridge
And you know and you know
''Cause my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow so beforeI'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song
My bed's full of takeaways and fantasies of easy lays
The pause button's broke on my video
And is this real 'cause I feel fake,
Oprah Winfrey, Rikki Lake
Teach me things I don't need to know
And you know and you know
''Cause my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow so beforeI'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song
If I did it all again I'd be a nun
The rain was never cold when I was young
I'm still young we're still young
Step inside the sun
And you know and you know
''Cause my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong I'll sing my song my song my song
Life's too short to be afraid
So take a pill to numb the pain
You don't have to take the blame
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame
Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of hereI'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen
I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man
Monday, April 04, 2005
SUNDAY BEATS THE CRAP OUT OF ME
It’s Sunday today, the day of the week that God rested. Where we must also rest and spend the time with our family and increase our spirituality, this what I have been taught from the beginning of my life. Yup, I grew up in a very religious family. Where the main purpose of our life is to serve Him. Well, that is what I did before I started hating myself. I was the obedient son, the friend who is always there, the intelligent student, everything you can ask for. I lived for others, making sure that everyone is happy, that if anybody were sad, I would always be there to be a shoulder to cry on.
Then I started hating myself, it all started when I losing my motivation in being the person I was. People around me think I was perfect, that I should be the best in what I do. Nobody seems to realize I had weaknesses, and that I also need to be cared and to need someone to cry on. But when I try to tell them these things, they always had some explanation and solution for me, when all I wanted was for someone to listen. Well, this really scared and hurt in a way I have never known before, so I decided to just hide in a mask of happiness, when deep inside I was already dying.
Then she came into my life. For the first time in my life, I thought I could be who I am. Yes, I was happy. Never been so happy in life. But like all good things in life it had to end. It started slowly, until it was to late for me to save. It really crushed me, but as always, people still expected me to be who I was before. Still taking time picking up the pieces but eventually I have to be what I was before. But deep inside I wish someone would find and save me from what I have become.
Then I started hating myself, it all started when I losing my motivation in being the person I was. People around me think I was perfect, that I should be the best in what I do. Nobody seems to realize I had weaknesses, and that I also need to be cared and to need someone to cry on. But when I try to tell them these things, they always had some explanation and solution for me, when all I wanted was for someone to listen. Well, this really scared and hurt in a way I have never known before, so I decided to just hide in a mask of happiness, when deep inside I was already dying.
Then she came into my life. For the first time in my life, I thought I could be who I am. Yes, I was happy. Never been so happy in life. But like all good things in life it had to end. It started slowly, until it was to late for me to save. It really crushed me, but as always, people still expected me to be who I was before. Still taking time picking up the pieces but eventually I have to be what I was before. But deep inside I wish someone would find and save me from what I have become.
Friday, April 01, 2005
Thursday, March 31, 2005
THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR NOT SLEEPING FOR TWO WEEKS
Last night I was really depressed (again). So decided to type what was inside my head.
(note this was all spontaneous. So had no time to think on what im typing.)
What is happening to me I can’t understand my self anymore? Why am I destroying my life? Is this because of April I hope not come on its stupid she doesn’t love me remember she betrayed you but why are not angry with her why do you still care for why do still freaking love her after all she has done to you remember she doesn’t care about your feelings remember when she called and asked you if something happen between the two of you last September coz they were already together and she wanted to assure herself that she didn’t cheat on him how about you didn’t she cheat on you yeah we all know that your understanding and that you’ll `1never angry but how about your feelings hasn’t she considered them for you but what did you freaking do you freaking supported her why do you always have to be there for everybody when it freaking hurts why you just who you are why cant scream out loud what you feel why do have to consider everybody feelings before yours what have you done to deserve this you were always willing to obey yeah I know you make mistake but come on your only human cant they cut you some slack. You always what they want you to be well until you met her that change everything for once you showed what you feel inside but you the idiot got things out of hands your emotions being kept up all those years began to pour out and you have no way of controlling it yeah kept that mask until you went on a mission you cant control anymore you cant hide you cant put that smile anymore coz deep inside you feel like crap you feel hell you don’t even know what you feel anymore you were so fuck up you just had to runaway and that made things worse you were just digging your own grave you got something great going then you destroy it what wrong with you why cant you hate everyone why cant you blame someone wit what happen to your life coz you cant you just love everybody you care so much you don’t mind getting hurt` now look at you know your parents2 don’t know what to do anymore your kin man you cant look in their eyes and to hate your self your even going to get excommunicated for crying out loud the only thing you hold true is rejecting you now yeah they all say you can come back you can fix your but the damage is already done your freaking hopeless now I don know what to do example why do I still care for her why in the world can you sense if she not felling good why do you have to be idiot to make her feel better s you can get hurt again that stupid it crazy now your freaking scared of showing what you really feel inside and you hate yourself for not showing it either man your freaking crazy you don’t even know what you want let me guess you don’t even know who you really you only fantasized but come on your even you fantasy are for other people you don’t dream for yourself anymore here a question do you know who you are and you don’t know if you love yourself maybe that’s it just hide and never who 1you really are2 just smile andthi9bnk everything is find so no one has to worry about you so you can die inside yourself and no one will 1ever know you know why you cant kill yourself coz everybody going to get hurt and we don’t want that do we so put on a mask hide in the shadows where you belong and let URIM be there for everyone so everyone else could forget there worries about you. Come now URIM will take of everyone he will help everyone be the a shoulder that everyone could cry the strong one the brave the wise the patient the obedient URIM not you who would like you any a guy who cant control his emotion who always hurt the2 one he cares for the one unreliable one the problem who would want tthat1 tell me who come on even God would hate you but not URIM the one everybody want the obedient servant, the honorable son, friend, brother that everybody wants not you he you don’t even like yourself why should anyone like coz you don’t even know who you are. You feel cold and empty inside do you. You deserve it anyway why you ask I don’t know but what’s happening to you deserve it. Your excuse is that your crazy that no excuse you cause yourself to become like this it not anybody fault it all your fault it nobody fault its all yours YOURS!!!!! You understand so accept it your worthless like I said hide runaway don’t show yourself 3anymore let URIM do the job he’s good at it your not your worthless I don’t even know why I’m bothering myself to tell you this don’t you get you should die and let URIM do your job so you agree with me now that’s good now here what we are going you hide in you little corner and let us do the job. What you change your mind why you feel that lying is bad yeah your right but come now at least they don’t get hurt coz of you I just want you to know who I am but I dub you unforgiven what are you doing quoting from songs you idiot that wont work no one will listen to you no believes on you remember mama called you unreliable and whose fault is it yours nobody but you it your fault again yours!!!! Hasn’t this proved anything yet wear URIM again please for everyone peace we don’t care if you get hurt wee just want URIM back okay please we beg for the sake of every one sanity.
Again, that is what happen if you don't get to sleep for a very long time
(note this was all spontaneous. So had no time to think on what im typing.)
What is happening to me I can’t understand my self anymore? Why am I destroying my life? Is this because of April I hope not come on its stupid she doesn’t love me remember she betrayed you but why are not angry with her why do you still care for why do still freaking love her after all she has done to you remember she doesn’t care about your feelings remember when she called and asked you if something happen between the two of you last September coz they were already together and she wanted to assure herself that she didn’t cheat on him how about you didn’t she cheat on you yeah we all know that your understanding and that you’ll `1never angry but how about your feelings hasn’t she considered them for you but what did you freaking do you freaking supported her why do you always have to be there for everybody when it freaking hurts why you just who you are why cant scream out loud what you feel why do have to consider everybody feelings before yours what have you done to deserve this you were always willing to obey yeah I know you make mistake but come on your only human cant they cut you some slack. You always what they want you to be well until you met her that change everything for once you showed what you feel inside but you the idiot got things out of hands your emotions being kept up all those years began to pour out and you have no way of controlling it yeah kept that mask until you went on a mission you cant control anymore you cant hide you cant put that smile anymore coz deep inside you feel like crap you feel hell you don’t even know what you feel anymore you were so fuck up you just had to runaway and that made things worse you were just digging your own grave you got something great going then you destroy it what wrong with you why cant you hate everyone why cant you blame someone wit what happen to your life coz you cant you just love everybody you care so much you don’t mind getting hurt` now look at you know your parents2 don’t know what to do anymore your kin man you cant look in their eyes and to hate your self your even going to get excommunicated for crying out loud the only thing you hold true is rejecting you now yeah they all say you can come back you can fix your but the damage is already done your freaking hopeless now I don know what to do example why do I still care for her why in the world can you sense if she not felling good why do you have to be idiot to make her feel better s you can get hurt again that stupid it crazy now your freaking scared of showing what you really feel inside and you hate yourself for not showing it either man your freaking crazy you don’t even know what you want let me guess you don’t even know who you really you only fantasized but come on your even you fantasy are for other people you don’t dream for yourself anymore here a question do you know who you are and you don’t know if you love yourself maybe that’s it just hide and never who 1you really are2 just smile andthi9bnk everything is find so no one has to worry about you so you can die inside yourself and no one will 1ever know you know why you cant kill yourself coz everybody going to get hurt and we don’t want that do we so put on a mask hide in the shadows where you belong and let URIM be there for everyone so everyone else could forget there worries about you. Come now URIM will take of everyone he will help everyone be the a shoulder that everyone could cry the strong one the brave the wise the patient the obedient URIM not you who would like you any a guy who cant control his emotion who always hurt the2 one he cares for the one unreliable one the problem who would want tthat1 tell me who come on even God would hate you but not URIM the one everybody want the obedient servant, the honorable son, friend, brother that everybody wants not you he you don’t even like yourself why should anyone like coz you don’t even know who you are. You feel cold and empty inside do you. You deserve it anyway why you ask I don’t know but what’s happening to you deserve it. Your excuse is that your crazy that no excuse you cause yourself to become like this it not anybody fault it all your fault it nobody fault its all yours YOURS!!!!! You understand so accept it your worthless like I said hide runaway don’t show yourself 3anymore let URIM do the job he’s good at it your not your worthless I don’t even know why I’m bothering myself to tell you this don’t you get you should die and let URIM do your job so you agree with me now that’s good now here what we are going you hide in you little corner and let us do the job. What you change your mind why you feel that lying is bad yeah your right but come now at least they don’t get hurt coz of you I just want you to know who I am but I dub you unforgiven what are you doing quoting from songs you idiot that wont work no one will listen to you no believes on you remember mama called you unreliable and whose fault is it yours nobody but you it your fault again yours!!!! Hasn’t this proved anything yet wear URIM again please for everyone peace we don’t care if you get hurt wee just want URIM back okay please we beg for the sake of every one sanity.
Again, that is what happen if you don't get to sleep for a very long time
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
First night
So this is how it works. Well if anyone is reading this, and wondering why in the world am i doing this? Its because this is the only way I can really express myself now. Got hurt really bad cuz I showed my emotions. Now Im even fucking scared of smiling for fear of getting hurt.
Haven't slept for days now. I just lie in my bed feeling sick and tired of myself for hours until the sun rises. Then I have to act that everything is fucking okay in my life. Some of you might ask why am i feeling like this well that another story.
Haven't slept for days now. I just lie in my bed feeling sick and tired of myself for hours until the sun rises. Then I have to act that everything is fucking okay in my life. Some of you might ask why am i feeling like this well that another story.
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