I know it's kinda late, but I was really busy and the blasted DSL wasn't working. That's why I couldn't post anything for a while. I must say it was a good month, mostly because of my honey (I love you).
I lost my phone recently. It got stolen when I sleeping in the bus. I guess it was time for me to replace it. I already had it for more than three years, and it really needed to be replaced. Unfortunately, it had become more of a camera than an actual phone. Hehehe!
I also watched a lot of movies this month. Not counting the movies I watch in dvd I watched a total of at least eight movies, namely:
-Epic Movie -Arthur and the Invisibles -Curse of the Golden Flower -Pursuit of Happyness -The Fountain -Music and Lyrics -Ghost Rider -The Number 23
I don't know where exactly I find the time to do this, but I guess if you want to spend time with someone you'll find a way. I'm happy to find someone who likes movies like me. I love you honey.
This song has been playing my head for quite awhile now since I watched it last week. The song is so mushy and catchy it won't leave my head. Also, Aprile has been singing it incessantly.
I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need 'em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through whithout a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
I recently discovered this on the net. It's really interesting, check it out
Absum! - I'm outta here! Aegroto, dum anima est, spes esse dicitur - It is said that for a sick man, there is hope as long as there is life Aeronavis abstractio a prestituto cursu - Hijacking Age. Fac ut gaudeam - Go ahead. Make my day! Amicule, deliciae, num is sum qui mentiar tibi? -Baby, sweetheart, would I lie to you? An nescis, mi fili, quantilla sapientia mundus regatur? - Don't you know then, my son, how little wisdom rules the world? Animadvertistine, ubicumque stes, fumum recta in faciem ferri? - (At a barbeque) Ever noticed how wherever you stand, the smoke goes right into your face? Appareo Decet Nihil Munditia? - Is It Not Nifty? Apudne te vel me? - Your place or mine? Aspice, officio fungeris sine spe honoris amplioris- Face it, you're stuck in a dead end job Astra non mentiuntur, sed astrologi bene mentiuntur de astris - The stars never lie, but the astrologs lie about the stars Bene, cum Latine nescias, nolo manus meas in te maculare - Well, if you don't understand plain Latin, I'm not going to dirty my hands on you Bovina Sancta! - Holy cow! Braccae illae virides cum subucula rosea et tunica Caledonia-quam elenganter concinnatur! - Those green pants go so well with that pink shirt and the plaid jacket! Braccae tuae aperiuntur - Your fly is open Brevior saltare cum deformibus mulieribus est vita- Life is too short to dance with ugly women Brevior saltare cum deformibus viris est vita - Life is too short to dance with ugly men Brevis esse latoro obscurus fio - When I try to be brief, I speak gobbledegook Canis meus id comedit - My dog ate it Caro putridas es! - You're dead meat Carpe Cerevisi - Seize the beer! caput tuum saxum immane mittam - I have a catapult. Give me all your money, or I will fling an enormous rock at your head Cave canem, te necet lingendo - Beware of the dog, he may lick you to death Cave canem - Beware of the dog Cave cibum, valde malus est - Beware the food, it is very bad Cave ne ante ullas catapultas ambules - If I were you, I wouldn't walk in front of any catapults Certamen bikini-suicidus-disci mox coepit? - Does the Bikini-Suicide-Frisbee match start soon? Certe, toto, sentio nos in kansate non iam adesse- You know, Toto, I have a feeling we're not inKansas anymore Cogito sumere potum alterum - I think I'll have another drink Corripe Cervisiam - Seize the beer! Coruscantes disci per convexa caeli volantes -Flying saucers Crapulam terriblem habeo - I have a terrible hangover Credidi me felem vidisse! - I tought I taw a puddy tat! Credo elvem etiam vivere - I believe Elvis lives Cuiusvis hominis est errare; nullius nisi insipientis in errore perseverare - Any man can make a mistake; only a fool keeps making the same one Cum catapultae proscriptae erunt tum soli proscript catapultas habebunt - When catapults are outlawed, only outlaws will have catapults Cur etiam hic es - Why are you still here? Da mihi basilia mille - Kiss me with a thousand kisses Da mihi castitatem et continentiam, sed noli modo! - Make me chaste and pure, but not yet! Da mihi sis bubulae frustrum assae, solana tuberosa in modo gallico fricta, ac quassum lactatum coagulatum crassum - Give me a hamburger, french fries, and a thick shake Da mihi sis cerevisiam dilutam - I'll have a light beer Da mihi sis crustum Etruscum cum omnibus in eo- I'll have a pizza with everything on it De inimico non loquaris sed cogites - Don't wish ill for your enemy; plan it Deus ex machina - A contrived or artificial solution. (literally, 'a god from a machine') Di! Ecce hora! Uxor mea me necabit! - God, look at the time! My wife will kill me!Diabolus fecit, ut id facerem! - The devil made me do it! Dic mihi solum facta, domina - Just the facts, ma'amDuc, sequere, aut de via decede - Lead, follow, or get out of the way Ducator meus nihil agit sine lagunculae leynidae accedunt - My calculator does not work without batteries Duco ergo sum - I calculate therefore I am Dum inter homines sumus, colamus humanitatem- As long as we are among humans, let us be humane. (Seneca) Eram quod es, eris quod sum - I was what you are, you will be what I am. (grave inscription) Ergo bibamus - Therefore, let us drink
Valentine’s Day is coming up next week, and happy to say that I’m not gonna be lonely. (HAHAHAHA!) We actually have lots of plans already for next week. I hope everything goes according to plan. Good thing I allowed some leeway for those spontaneous plans. Anyway, it's our monthsary tomorrow, and I’m still clueless on what to do for her.
Finally I got to access my blog. I was having problems accessing it for a couple of weeks already. I think it's because of the earthquake in Taiwan. Anyway, here are some pics (I look really fat). Lots of things happened recently but I have to say that I'm happy.
My brother left for his mission today. He is assigned to go to the U.S., and that means he will be far from us. We shall surely miss him but we know he is doing a great and marvelous thing, and our prayers are always with him. I didn’t say a word to him as he entered the airport. I just waved at him to say goodbye. I’m really proud of him. He has done his best and we can’t ask more for him. I love my brother and I’m even willing to give my life for him.
A lot of people notice a change in me lately. They say that I’m not melancholic anymore. I have that warm smile that I used to have. I guess the reason is that I’m in a relationship right now. Her name is Aprile Joy (I know some people would be laughing, but trust me I had no idea that was her real name until after we started dating. I always called her Amber.) She’s been a real angel in my life. Life seems to have more meaning. Lately, I sometimes find myself looking forward to the next day just to be with her even though I’m still with her.
Life has given something that makes me happy. I think I’m gonna do everything to keep this one for good. Hehehe!
Michael V. has done it again for the "nth" time he has made the philippines a happier and funnier place to live in. I enjoy watching this video cause it reminds me of a lot of people. Hehehe! 2 thumbs up for Michael V.
I watched “the nativity” yesterday with Aprile. It was a very good movie, which gave a new perspective to the nativity story. It gave equal focus to Mary and Joseph, giving new meaning to the line “Joseph is good man. I actually enjoyed listening to the wise men especially Balthazar’s need for dates and nuts
Something in my heart stirred while watching the movie. It’s just as if I yearn for something and I was near the thing that could fill up the emptiness in my soul.
I just have one problem with movie though and I think it is just me but the angel Gabriel just gives me the creeps for some reason.
My life has been quite eventful lately. It has its difficulties but it been interesting otherwise. Still working (thank heavens!) and still broke. Hehehe! It has been getting a little stressful due to the paperwork but still manageable. I actually find myself having fun sometimes.
I had a couple of problems with some friends that I rather not discuss here, but I do feel bad that they feel that way but I guess that’s just me and being a stiff and a square also makes you not good with politics and social relationships (hmmmm, explains why I like paperwork).
My crush is going home in a couple back in to Korea. I am going to miss her but I guess but that is life and she needs to back where she belongs. At least, I get to hangout with her before she goes.
I don’t have sleep yet. I have been up for 48 hours now. I was up all night with the tropa playing Giovanni chronicles. I’ll always be thankful for Tobie and the group for letting me join them. I really need to play. It’s my way of relieving the stress.
I really miss Pia and hopes she comes back before Christmas.
Can.. (anybody find me somebody to love?) (ooh...)
Each morning I get up, I die a little Can't barely stand on my feet | Take a look in the mirror and cry |(Take a look at yourself, in the mirror, and cry! Yeah, yeah) Lord what you're doing to me |I have spent all my years in believing you |(ooh, ooh believing you) _ |But I just can't get no relief, Lord! |(I just can't get no relief, Lord!)
Somebody, (somebody), oh somebody (somebody) | Can anybody find me somebody to love? |(anybody find me) Yeah..
I work (he works hard) every day of my life I work till I ache my bones At the end (At the end of the day) I take home |(goes home, goes home on his own) | my hard earned pay all on my own - I get down (down) on my knees (knees) And I start to pray (praise the Lord!) |Till the tears run down from my eyes, Lord! |(ooh, ooh, ooh Lord!)
Somebody (somebody), ooh somebody! (please) |Can anybody find me - somebody to love? |(Can anybody find me)
(He works hard) Everyday (everyday) |And I try and I try and I try |(I try and I try and I try) But everybody wants to put me down They say I'm goin' crazy They say I got a lot of water in my brain I got no common sense I got nobody left to believe |(He's got nobody left to believe) (Yeah yeah yeah yeah)
(Ooh Lord) Oh Somebody, ooh (somebody) |Anybody find me |(anybody find me) Somebody to love? (Can, anybody, find me, someone to love?)
Got no feel, I got no rhythm I just keep losing my beat (you just keep losing, and losing) I'm ok, I'm alright (he's alright, he's alright) I ain't gonna face no defeat (yeah, yeah) I just gotta get out of this |Prison cell |(ooh, ooh, Prison cell) _ |Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord! |(Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord! )
Find me somebody to love (x11) Can anybody find me - somebody to love? Find me somebody to love (x8)
Well, finally found out who finished the last episode of the "trilogy" of their fights. It was kinda short but satisfying, as expected from the both of them.
Pacquiao's and Morales' has really brought boxing for us to a new level. Its no longer two men beating the crap out of each other, its a matter of national pride. Both men carry on their backs the name of their country a "really big " responsibility. In the end, it was Pacquiao who emerge victorious, and we are forever grateful for what he has done for our country's pride. To Morales, well he did the good fight and to him I give my respect.
Great news people!!! I got drunk last night and can't remember a damn thing that happened at certain point. I really feel stupid right now, plus have a massive headache. I sometimes ask myself why in the world I'm doing these things. I used to hate alcohol and everything it stands for, and here I am being one of them.
And whoever gave me the idea I can go one on one with a korean. I know she's a girl, but she drinks regularly and she can hold her alcohol. I think blurted out a lot of things considering I'm very honest and no control on what I saying when I'm drunk.
I wish give more details but no I have idea of what happened. I can't even remember how I got home.
Right now, I'm here sitting in front of the computer barely breathing (I'm having an asthma attack). I feel so helpless, because I can't do anything. I wish I could do something aside from stare at the computer and wheeze the hours away.
I really miss my friends. All I do is go to work and slave the hours away. I miss the care free days, where my only worry is how to survive the week with my allowance (I spent a lot of money on useless stuff). I'm being nostalgic again.
But life ain't bad. Yeah there are problems, but I can smile whenever I want and really feels great. Thinking too much is a problem but I come to accept that just me. I do too much introspection and that makes me me.
I have done it again!!! I have a song stuck in my again and its playing non-stop (this is all your fault tobs). It kinda ironic though that of all the songs its this one.
It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love People tell me love's for fools Here I go, breaking all the rules It seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, so doggone easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Oh, it seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, where you're concerned, my heart can learn (It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh) Oh-oh-oh It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love (guitarsolo) Look into your heart and see What your love book has set aside for me It seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, so doggone easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Oh, it seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, where you're concerned, my heart can learn (It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh) Oh-oh-oh It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love (guitarsolo) It seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, so doggone easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Yeah, it seems so easy (It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy) Oh, where you're concerned, my heart can learn (It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh) Oh-oh-oh It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love It's so easy to fall in love (Wa-uh-oh) It's so easy to fall in love
Now I remember why stayed I away from responsibility for the longest time. It is the "STRESS"!!! Hehehehe!!! Anyway, it honestly does feel good to be part of something growing. Unfortunately, my butt has been suffering for being stuck in chair for couple of hours. I really do miss horsing around and acting childishly. Some of my friends actually said that I have changed all of sudden.
Anyway, for those who hasn't heard of it yet I just got promoted from an agent to assistant team captain. I love my team; we are just a bunch of misfits, from the mentally insane (that's me) to the wallflowers (you who know are!). Also, I would like give special mention to our Ma’am Joana, for being the coolest team captain (Sipsip!).
The downside of the story is that I can't join the YSA conference next week. I really have to be there because of the level tests. I just can't leave my TC for two days, and with the work load we have it would be really difficult for her. Ang bait ko sobra!!!
This song has been bugging me ever since I first heard it live. I know its a shampoo commercial jingle, but who cares right. It took me awhile to know the title of the song but with much research and hard work I was able to know the title and lyrics of the song.
Let Me Orange And Lemons
... Love You turn my head, but instead
Refrain: You turn my head, but instead I feel so lonely I feel for you, I've got to say You put a spell on me I open my eyes, softly and wide Lovely flower, you're my sunshine I open my eyes, softly and wide Lovely flower, you're my sunshine
Light is filtering, your eyes are glimmering Let me hold you, let me hold you I think that it's a sign you've opened up the inner creases of your mind Let me kiss you, let me kiss you
(Repeat Refrain)
Hope is signaling, happiness is beckoning Let me love you, let me love you I think that it's a sign, no more walls to keep me by your side Let me touch you, let me touch you
I have no idea why posted these pictures I guess I just need to see myself in the net (pathetic). I do look like a guy in a tabloid ,wanted for something.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
I forgot to mention that I lost my wallet while sleeping in a bus last Saturday. I don't know if somebody stole it or I just lost it, but one thing is for sure I'm officially bankrupt right now. I thought I had only a hundred bucks in there, but I remembered that I have a thousand pesos in there. I always have it my wallet for emergencies. Well that's life, I just hope someone could help me out. Just 3 more days until pay day. I hope I survive.
I finally figured out how to upload the pictures from my phone. It took me awhile to figure out the setting for the program (note: default does not always work). Anyway here are some pics.
The hot mama of our shift (due to the lack of good looking females in our shift.)
Joy (She's just Joy.)
Pie (Ang Babaeng Bakla.)
I was adviced by my lawyers not to give anymore comments to the picture above, so not to add insult to injury.
The little Girl. (Is that packaging tape on her hair?)
Friday, September 22, 2006
Hmmmm, life is getting pretty monotonous lately. Wake up around 2 o'clock in the morning. Go to work around three. Spend nine hours at work, doing the same routine everyday. Travel home for two hours. Gettitng really bored lately. I even started reading the dictionary again and that is getting really pathetic. I must get out more often, though no idea what to do.
I'm now reading some of Edgar Allan Poe's works and have become fascinated on how this man thinks and the emotion invested in his works. This is one of his famous poems and like to share it.
The Raven
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. "'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door - Only this, and nothing more."
Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore - For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore - Nameless here for evermore.
And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating, "'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door - Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; - This it is, and nothing more."
Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, "Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you"- here I opened wide the door; - Darkness there, and nothing more.
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before; But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?" This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!" - Merely this, and nothing more.
Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before. "Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice: Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore - Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; - 'Tis the wind and nothing more."
Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore; Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he; But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door - Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door - Perched, and sat, and nothing more.
Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore. "Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven, Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore - Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."
Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, Though its answer little meaning- little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being Ever yet was blest with seeing bird above his chamber door - Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as "Nevermore."
But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered - Till I scarcely more than muttered, "other friends have flown before - On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before." Then the bird said, "Nevermore."
Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, "Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store, Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore - Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore Of 'Never - nevermore'."
But the Raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door; Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore - What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking "Nevermore."
This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er, But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er, She shall press, ah, nevermore!
Then methought the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by Seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor. "Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he hath sent thee Respite - respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."
"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! - Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted - On this home by horror haunted- tell me truly, I implore - Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."
"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil - prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore - Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore - Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore." Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."
"Be that word our sign in parting, bird or fiend," I shrieked, upstarting - "Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken!- quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."
And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming, And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted - nevermore!
My life has been weird but still puts a smile on my face. Weird in a way that I'm actually everything, including my problems and my "other" things that's been bothering me for awhile.
I'm still working and very close in getting myself regularize. It's kinda pathetic if you ask what do I intend to achieve in this job, which is to last for more than 6 months. I'm still here teaching Koreans on how to speak english and I'm being train as a assistant team captain. Turned out to be a good job.
Made some really friends at work, and I'm actually trusting some people with what's going on with my head. It's been awhile since I trusted myself to anyone and feels really good to know that I still can trust.
I have to admit though that my taste for women still hasn't change. I still end falling for women with emotional problems. I don't know what's my problems but I'm drawn to women with some sort of problem. Like one of my friends one said, "You really have a weird taste with women".
I’ve been the needle and the thread Weaving figure eights and circles round your head I try to laugh but cry instead Patiently wait to hear the words you’ve never said
Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for Try to guide me in the right direction Making use of all this time Keeping everything inside Close my eyes and listen to you cry
I’m lifting you up I’m letting you down I’m dancing til dawn I’m fooling around I’m not giving up I’m making your love This city’s made us crazy and we must get out
This not goodbye she said It is just time for me to rest my head She does not walk she runs instead Down these jagged streets and into my bed
Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for Try to guide me in the right direction Making use of all this time Keeping everything inside Close my eyes and listen to you cry
I’m lifting you up I’m letting you down I’m dancing til dawn I’m fooling around I’m not giving up I’m making your love This city’s made us crazy and we must get out
There’s only so much I can do for you After all of the things you put me through
I am a question to the world Not an answer to be heard Or a moment That's held in your arms
And what do you think you'd ever say? I won't listen anyway You don't know me And I'll never be what you want me to be
And what do you think you'd understand? I'm a boy, no, I'm a man You can't take me And throw me away
And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah, you stand here on your own They don't know me Cause I'm not here
Chorus: And I want a moment to be real Wanna touch things I don't feel Wanna hold on and feel I belong And how can the world want me to change? They're the ones that stay the same They don't know me Cause I'm not here
And you see the things they never see All you wanted I could be Now you know me And I'm not afraid
And I want to tell you who I am Can you help me be a man? They can't break me As long as I know who I am
Chorus
They can't tell me who to be Cause I'm not what they see Yeah, the world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me And their words are just whispers and lies thatI'll never believe
Chorus
I'm the one now Cause I'm still here I'm the one Cause I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here I'm still here
I'm trying to get her out of my system. I try not to talk to her or even greet her in the process but these things that I have been doing has been eating me up inside. I think I'm over doing it, ignoring her and all but I have to do something about it. I want to have that dignity that I have lose a long time ago. I want to feel that care-free feeling that everyone is telling me about.
I feel so alone when everything going fine. I know I should be happy for them and all that shit, but I always become a figure in the background when good things happened. I know I'm becoming bitter and all but I can't help but wonder if there is more to this life of mine.( hmmmm, that sounded like a song.).
Here am I, ranting again about my life I just wish, somebody would save me (and people would say save yourself.)
I have been singing this song since last friday. I feel so dumb right now because I really don't know what's goin on...
I have loved you only in my mind But I know that there will come a time To feel this feeling I have inside
You're a hopeless romantic is what they say Falling in and out of love just like a play Memorizing each line, I still don't know what to say What to say...
Chorus: Don't know what to do whenever you are near Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears When you pass by I could fly
Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day I dream of you in the most special way You're beside me all the time All the time...
I have loved you and I always will Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel This feeling I have for you inside
I'm a hopeless romantic I know I am Memorized all the lines and here I am Struggling for words I still don't know what to say What to say...
Chorus
Don't know what to do whenever you are near Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears When you pass by I could fly Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day I dream of you in the most special way You're beside me all the time All the time... all the time... all the time...
Sunday, August 20, 2006
I guess, I should have expected that someone would ask me eventually about my standing in my religion(weakling!!!). But it still caught me off guard, that all I can do was smile and give the usual "its complicated" answer, avoiding the whole situation(hahaha!). It was funny when I had a chance to think about it. That after all I've been through(trust me on this part its been a lot), I still care. Is this remnants of my faith or a longing for something forgotten ( and with my memory in fragments).
It is true that there are times when I still yearn to be in His good graces again (yeah right). I still have that void inside me eating me slowly (feeling it but your enjoying it), with no solution in sight.(quitter!)
I feel stupid right now. I’m in love with someone but I couldn’t tell her in person. It’s kinda pathetic for me to be doing this and I should know better. When I’m with her it feels so right, that I forget all the plans and the words.
Don't Know What to Say (Don't Know What to Do) Ric Segreto
I have loved you only in my mind But I know that there will come a time To feel this feelin' I have inside
" You're a hopeless romantic" is what they say Fallin' in and out of love just like a play Memorizin' each line, I still don't know what to say What to say
CHORUS Don't know what to do whenever you are near Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears When you pass by I could fly
Every minute, every second of the day I dream of you in the most special ways You're beside me all the time All the time
I have loved you and I always will Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel This feelin' I have for you inside
I'm a hopeless romantic, I know I am Memorized all the lines and here I am Strugglin' for words, I still don't know what to say What to say
Seven am; The garbage truck beeps as it backs up And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away. Could I push rewind? The credits traverse, signifying the end But I missed the best part. Could we please go back to start? Forgive my indecision
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.
Eleven am, By now you would think that I would be up But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've madeAnd what did I find? I never thought I could want someone so much' Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear. Forgive my indecision... I am only a man.
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.
Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings. Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?I hope its you.
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side But, then again, the day has come and I want off that ride
To Be With You Lyrics
Hold on little girl Show me what he's done to you Stand up little girl A broken heart can't be that bad When it's through, it's through Fate will twist the both of you So come on baby come on over Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you Deep inside I hope you feel it too Waited on a line of greens and blues Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence So you can be on top for once wake up who cares about Little boys that talk too much I've seen it all go down Your game of love was all rained out So come on baby, come on over Let me be the one to hold you
Chorus
Why be alone when we can be together baby You can make my life worthwhile And I can make you start to smile
When it's through, it's through Fate will twist the both of you Come on baby come on over Let me be the one to show you
An only child alone and wild A cabinet maker's son His hands were meant for different work And his heart was known to none -- He left his home and went his lone and solitary way And he gave to me a gift I know I never can repay
A quiet man of music Denied a simpler fate He tried to be a soldier once But his music wouldn't wait He earned his love through discipline A thundering, velvet hand His gentle means of sculpting souls Took me years to understand.
The leader of the band is tired And his eyes are growing old But his blood runs through my instrument And his song is in my soul -- My life has been a poor attempt To imitate the man I'm just a living legacy To the leader of the band.
My brothers' lives were different For they heard another call One went to Chicago And the other to St. Paul And I'm in Colorado When I'm not in some hotel Living out this life I've chose And come to know so well.
(Instrumental)
I thank you for the music And your stories of the road I thank you for the freedom when it came my time to go -- I thank you for the kindness And the times when you got tough And, papa, I don't think I Said 'I love you' near enough --
The leader of the band is tired And his eyes are growing old But his blood runs through my instrument And his song is in my soul -- My life has been a poor attempt To imitate the man I'm just a living legacy To the leader of the band I am the living legacy To the leader of the band. ------------------------------------------------------------------------
This has become my theme song at work for some strange reason. I have no idea why coz I was "dizzy" when it happened.
I found a picture of myself taken last year. I have know idea what was I thinking when this was taken, but I sure have gain a lot of weight. I really need to work out.
Here are some pics I got from a friend. I have some good ones in my phone but I'm still looking for a data cable for my phone.
My life has been turning out great lately. I'm actually happy with what I have. Yeah, its true that I don't have enough money and I'm still single when all my friends are getting married, but I feel a sense of satisfaction and I look forward to each and everyday.
Seen over 80 movies = you have no life. Got this from Tobie's blog. Let's see....
Mark the ones you've seen. There are 168 movie titles on this list. Put your score in header and repost.
( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show (x) Grease (x) Pirates of the Caribbean ( ) Boondock Saints (x) Fight Club (x) Starsky and Hutch (x) Neverending Story ( ) Blazing Saddles ( ) Airplane ( ) My First Mister ( ) The Virgin Suicides
Total: 5/11
( ) The Princess Bride (x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy ( ) Napoleon Dynamite ( ) Labyrinth ( ) Saw (x) Saw II ( ) White Noise ( ) White Oleander (x) Anger Management (x) 50 First Dates (x) The Princess Diaries (x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 6/12
(x) Scream ( ) Scream 2 ( ) Scream 3 (x) Scary Movie (x) Scary Movie 2 (x) Scary Movie 3 (x) Scary Movie 4 (x) American Pie (x) American Pie 2 (x) American Wedding ( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 8/11
(x) Harry Potter (x) Harry Potter 2 (x) Harry Potter 3 (x) Harry Potter 4 (x) Resident Evil I (x) Resident Evil 2 (x) The Wedding Singer ( ) Little Black Book (x) The Village (x) Lilo & Stitch
Total: 9/10
(x) Finding Nemo (x) Finding Neverland ( ) Signs (x) The Grinch ( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (x) White Chicks ( ) Butterfly Effect (x) 13 Going on 30 ( ) I, Robot (x) Robots
Total: 6/10
(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story (x) Universal Soldier (x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events (x) Along Came Polly (x) Deep Impact ( ) KingPin (x) Never Been Kissed (x) Meet The Parents (x) Meet the Fockers ( ) Eight Crazy Nights ( ) Joe Dirt (x) King Kong
Total: 9/12
( ) A Cinderella Story (x) The Terminal ( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie ( ) Passport to Paris (x) Dumb & Dumber ( ) Dumber & Dumberer ( ) Final Destination ( ) Final Destination 2 ( ) Final Destination 3 ( ) Halloween (x) The Ring (x) The Ring 2 ( ) Surviving X-MAS (x) Flubber
Total: 5/14
(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle ( ) Practical Magic ( ) Chicago ( ) Ghost Ship ( ) From Hell (x) Hellboy ( ) Secret Window (x) I Am Sam ( ) The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 3/9
(x) The Day After Tomorrow ( ) Child's Play ( ) Seed of Chucky ( ) Bride of Chucky ( ) Ten Things I Hate About You (x) Just Married (x) Gothika ( ) Nightmare on Elm Street (x) Sixteen Candles ( ) Remember the Titans ( ) Coach Carter (x) The Grudge (x) the Mask ( ) Son Of The Mask
Total: 6/14
(x) Bad Boys 2 ( ) Joy Ride (x) Se7en (x) Ocean's Eleven ( ) Ocean's Twelve ( ) Identity ( ) Lone Star (x) Bedazzled (x) Predator I (x) Predator II ( ) The Fog (x) Ice Age (x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
Total: 8/13
(x) Independence Day ( ) Cujo ( ) A Bronx Tale ( ) Darkness Falls (x) ET ( ) Children of the Corn ( ) My Boss' Daughter (x) Maid in Manhattan ( ) Frailty (x) War of the Worlds (x) Rush Hour (x) Rush Hour 2
Total: 6/12
( ) Best Bet (x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (x) She's All That ( ) Calendar Girls ( ) Sideways (x) Mars Attacks ( ) Event Horizon (x) Ever After ( ) Forrest Gump (x) Big Trouble in Little China (x) The Terminator (x) Terminator 2
Total: 7/12
(x) X-Men (x) X2 (x) Spider-Man (x) Spider-Man 2 (x) Sky High ( ) Jeepers Creepers ( ) Jeepers Creepers 2 ( ) Catch Me If You Can ( ) The Others ( ) Freaky Friday (x) Reign of Fire (x) Cruel Intentions ( ) Cruel Intentions 2 ( ) Cruel Intentions 3 (x) The Hot Chick (x) Shrek (x) Shrek 2
Total: 10/17
( ) Swimfan ( ) Miracle (x) Old School (x) The Notebook ( ) K-Pax (x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (x) A Walk to Remember ( ) Boogeyman (x) The 40-year-old-virgin
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