SONGS

I’ve been the needle and the thread
Weaving figure eights and circles round your head
I try to laugh but cry instead
Patiently wait to hear the words you’ve never said

Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry

I’m lifting you up
I’m letting you down
I’m dancing til dawn
I’m fooling around
I’m not giving up
I’m making your love
This city’s made us crazy and we must get out

This not goodbye she said
It is just time for me to rest my head
She does not walk she runs instead
Down these jagged streets and into my bed

Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry

I’m lifting you up
I’m letting you down
I’m dancing til dawn
I’m fooling around
I’m not giving up
I’m making your love
This city’s made us crazy and we must get out

There’s only so much I can do for you
After all of the things you put me through




I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment
That's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away

And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

Chorus:
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

Chorus

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies thatI'll never believe

Chorus

I'm the one now
Cause I'm still here
I'm the one
Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

THE GOOD OL' DAYS

rants

I'm trying to get her out of my system. I try not to talk to her or even greet her in the process but these things that I have been doing has been eating me up inside. I think I'm over doing it, ignoring her and all but I have to do something about it. I want to have that dignity that I have lose a long time ago. I want to feel that care-free feeling that everyone is telling me about.

I feel so alone when everything going fine. I know I should be happy for them and all that shit, but I always become a figure in the background when good things happened. I know I'm becoming bitter and all but I can't help but wonder if there is more to this life of mine.( hmmmm, that sounded like a song.).

Here am I, ranting again about my life I just wish, somebody would save me (and people would say save yourself.)

Feelin' dumb

I have been singing this song since last friday. I feel so dumb right now because I really don't know what's goin on...

I have loved you only in my mind
But I know that there will come a time
To feel this feeling I have inside

You're a hopeless romantic is what they say
Falling in and out of love just like a play
Memorizing each line, I still don't know what to say
What to say...

Chorus:
Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly

Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day
I dream of you in the most special way
You're beside me all the time
All the time...

I have loved you and I always will
Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel
This feeling I have for you inside

I'm a hopeless romantic I know I am
Memorized all the lines and here I am
Struggling for words I still don't know what to say
What to say...

Chorus

Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly
Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day I dream of you in the most special way
You're beside me all the time
All the time... all the time... all the time...

I guess, I should have expected that someone would ask me eventually about my standing in my religion(weakling!!!). But it still caught me off guard, that all I can do was smile and give the usual "its complicated" answer, avoiding the whole situation(hahaha!). It was funny when I had a chance to think about it. That after all I've been through(trust me on this part its been a lot), I still care. Is this remnants of my faith or a longing for something forgotten ( and with my memory in fragments).

It is true that there are times when I still yearn to be in His good graces again (yeah right). I still have that void inside me eating me slowly (feeling it but your enjoying it), with no solution in sight.(quitter!)

Tongue Tied

I feel stupid right now. I’m in love with someone but I couldn’t tell her in person. It’s kinda pathetic for me to be doing this and I should know better. When I’m with her it feels so right, that I forget all the plans and the words.

Don't Know What to Say
(Don't Know What to Do)
Ric Segreto

I have loved you only in my mind
But I know that there will come a time
To feel this feelin' I have inside

" You're a hopeless romantic" is what they say
Fallin' in and out of love just like a play
Memorizin' each line, I still don't know what to say
What to say

CHORUS
Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly

Every minute, every second of the day
I dream of you in the most special ways
You're beside me all the time
All the time

I have loved you and I always will
Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel
This feelin' I have for you inside

I'm a hopeless romantic, I know I am
Memorized all the lines and here I am
Strugglin' for words, I still don't know what to say
What to say

[Repeat CHORUS]
All the time [3x]

SONGS IN PLAYING IN HEAD

11am Lyrics

Seven am;
The garbage truck beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Eleven am,
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've madeAnd what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much'
Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.
Forgive my indecision... I am only a man.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?I
hope its you.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, the day has come and I want off that ride

To Be With You Lyrics

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
Come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

chorus

just to be the next to be with

chorus

just to be the next to be with you

EDUNARAKADA

Brian, Glen, and Alan

This really looks familiar in work. We actually have some similar characteristics with these three. Guess who's who in edunara.

LEADER OF THE BAND

An only child alone and wild
A cabinet maker's son
His hands were meant for different work
And his heart was known to none --
He left his home and went his lone and solitary way
And he gave to me a gift I know
I never can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

My brothers' lives were different
For they heard another call
One went to Chicago
And the other to St. Paul
And I'm in Colorado
When I'm not in some hotel
Living out this life I've chose
And come to know so well.

(Instrumental)

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom when it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, papa, I don't think I
Said 'I love you' near enough --

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.
------------------------------------------------------------------------

This has become my theme song at work for some strange reason. I have no idea why coz I was "dizzy" when it happened.

I have no Idea.

I found a picture of myself taken last year. I have know idea what was I thinking when this was taken, but I sure have gain a lot of weight. I really need to work out.