LORELAND

This is the only pic I have of our team building (more like a company outing), I actually got this from joe (thanks dude!). We had a great time and discovered a lot of different personalities.

Get well soon!!!

Kuya Carlo has been in the hospital for awhile. I just wish he would get better soon. I ask for your prayers that he would get well soon.

i feel so alone and empty right now im even suprise how in the world im able to type this entry. i'm losing all motivation to do anything its as if im in some dark place but why im feeling this ? I haev a life in front in me i have everything going well why am i feelin th is i dont konw feel like giving up right now. don t want to go back ther im so scared right now will someone pleae help i dont konow what todo help. I can hear them screaming again dont want to hurt anyone anymore lost to many people i care losing my grip agaain i feel so helpless right now help please anyone?

Smile

We all have problems in life, so here's something to brightens our day.

NOW THIS IS SAD

I just posted Utada Hikaru's song last saturday and suddenly I can relate to the song. I'll spare you the details of what happen lets just say it my stupidity with it comes to a person I love.

Anyway, I can hear the voices laughing right now at my pain. So if you need me I'll be at my room making friends with the shadows. :P

First Love

Fell in love with Utada again. Anyway, here is my favorite song with the english translation of the lyrics.



Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Last Night

Went out with joseph and company last night at greenvelt. It was sort of a farewell thing for my cousin since he's going out to his mission next saturday.


Shabu-shabu at Kwang Tong. Must remind myself that I have highblood and that crabs are reason I have it.


Elaine, Sheryl, and Edmund.


The ladies...


and the gen...errr...the men na lang we're not gentle eh.


God please don't let me get this big!


Mahangin talaga sa labas(thanks to the exhaust :P).

I think she fell in love already with the croc sculpture. She didn't want to leave it.


The streets were not safe from us.


Not even Pia Guanio (She was drunk anyway.)...

Keep singing this for a while.

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Good morning

Isn't sad to know that the people who's opinion matters to you would be the one to say that you can't do it. When show that you are sad and hurt with what they just said, they would back it up with I'm only trying to tell you the truth and want you to realize that the world is like it will not care for you and not make decisions for you.

What the fuck are you trying to say? I know the world is cruel and all. I found it the hard way remember! Thats the world for you! Now where in the world would I find some peace?! Would it be nice to have someone or someplace where I can lower down my defenses and find solace and peace. I'm sick and tired of trying not care because I know I'll just get hurt, of making sure no one gets inside me, of trying to prove to everyone that okay and strong.

Maybe thats why I feel so empty inside, because I know if I disappear I would not be remembered anymore. I'm a ghost in people's lives I just pass through never to be remembered. Maybe I haven't found my place yet or I'm just blind. My death would very quiet indeed.

Love Struck!!!

I went out with Pia last Thursday (finally!). After trying to fit our schedule together (I'm beginning to hate for this reason). Anyway, we decided to watch x-men 3, unfortunately there wasn't any space for us and we didn't want to be out late, coz there still work tomorrow and she was kinda feeling sick. I could see her frustration in her face (man! was she cute!) and tried to cheer up. We just decided to have dinner (must always remind myself that she doesn't like some stuff that I eat) and just talked about some stuff. I was surprised that she all along that I had feelings for her and that she notice the small things I did. She also thanked me for being able to understand the restraint we had when I want to see her and talk to her (I was in cloud 9 already just by hearing that). After that we just hanged out at star bucks and just continued our conversation (which beats the crap out of talking to oneself a gazillion time). I was touched by the fact that she was able to open up to me considering some things. We didn’t realize what time it was until she went to the washroom. It was already 12 midnight (So much for going home early). So we just took a cab to her place and call it a night.

I got home around 1:30 am and I had work at 5:00 am, but I couldn’t sleep with all the excitement and butterflies inside my stomach. I went to work without any sleep (I had some stolen naps during this time). I’m still at cloud 9 right now. I just hope she feels the same way (even just a speck of it would do). Keeping my fingers cross.

A song for her!!!

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me