Naruto Craze

You scored as Rock Lee. You are Rock Lee, the genius of hard work.
You believe that anything can be achieved through hard work. You can’t be the best at everything, so you have decided to master one skill better than anyone. Feeling constant need to prove yourself, you tend to be competitive and a little hard for yourself.

Rock Lee		94%
Sasuke		81%
Hinata		81%
Kakashi		81%
Iruka		69%
Genma		69%
Shikamaru		69%
Neji		44%
Naruto		31%
TenTen		31%

Which Naruto ninja are you most like?
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I'm fuzzy eyebrows

MALKAV'S CHILD

You scored as Malkavian. You belong to the Malkavian bloodline. The Malkavians are blessed with an "inner sight" which often gives them great perception and even clairvoyance. Many are sought for their counsel and insight. The drawback, however, is that they are all entirely insane. If a vampire is speaking in obscure riddles, it's a fair bet they are of Malkavian blood.

Malkavian		92%
Tremere		83%
Nosferatu		75%
Gangrel		71%
Brujah		54%
Ventrue		54%
Toreador		38%

What vampire clan do you belong to?
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Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Exalted

You scored as Malfean. You are a Malfean! The Malfeans are Primordials that were slain during the younger Gods' rebellion and were later used to form the prison for the Yozis. Not quite dead and wholly not alive, the undead Malfeans wish for nothing other than release from pain-- a release they can't have until the entirety of Creation is tipped into the Void. They'll use anyone to accomplish that end, even the other Yozis, the Deathlords, and the Exalted. Malfean 80% Lunar 75% Elemental 70% Fair Folk 65% Solar 60% Dragon-Blooded 55% Abyssal 55% Yozi 55% Sidereal 50% Celestine 15% What Exalted Character Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

This sucks, I'm not even playable

Romantic eh!

You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good!

Romantic Kisser		94%
Dont quit your day job...		38%
Yippy Ki Yay!		38%

How good do you kiss?
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now if i only can find someone to kiss

Very accurate

You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets. Unipolar Depression 100% Antisocial Personality Disorder 33% Borderline Personality Disorder 33% Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 8% Schizophrenia 0% Eating Disorders 0% Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com

DEATH

You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Suicide 100% Disappear 67% Posion 53% Bomb 47% Drowning 47% Disease 47% Gunshot 40% Natural Causes 33% Stabbed 33% Accident 33% Eaten 13% Cut Throat 13% Suffocated 7% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com

aww, I wanted to just disapear.

SLEEPING BEAUTY

You scored as Sleeping Beauty. Your alter ego is Princess Aurora, a.k.a. Sleeping Beauty! You are beautiful and enchanting, and as sweet as ever.

Sleeping Beauty		75%
The Beast		69%
Donald Duck		63%
Ariel		56%
Peter Pan		50%
Goofy		44%
Cinderella		38%
Cruella De Ville		31%
Pinocchio		31%
Snow White		25%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Hmmm, I think i really need to go out with girls more often

Could it be

Went out with an old friend last night and seems I can't stop thinking her. Well for one she did look really beautiful. Something I never realize until yesterday. And the best part is I really felt at ease being with her and I was able to share things about myself that I've never shared with anyone. I just hope things go right now. Maybe there's hope for me.

Songs

I found myself singing this songs over and over again.



LONELY NO MORE

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else

Can you swear to me that you?ll always be this way?
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

Well I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list

I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore


Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
Now it?s hard for me
When my heart?s still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it?s harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can?t we just try?


I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list

I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely anymore


Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh

What if I was good to you?

What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise?
What if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you?

I don?t want to be lonely no more
I don?t want to have to pay for this
I don?t want another lover at my door
It?s just another heartache on my list

I don?t wanna be angry no more
You?re the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don?t wanna be lonely any more

Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh

I don?t wanna be lonely any more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely no more
I don?t wanna be lonely any more



YOU AND ME

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

A couple of tests I find

very interesting...

Last day of the Real Me

Well this is goodbye to everyone. I have to go somewhere no one will find me (I'm not gonna kill myself. Ok). It seems everyone wants Urim to come back. So even if i have to hide myself its ok. As long that everyone will stop making a problem that will have to do. So all future posts here is what is happening inside me. And the only one who'll ever know are the people who accidentally find my blog (like that would happen).

Damn Spywares

A spyware has again infected my pc. Afterall the things i installed in this computer. Something has installed itself and it seems that I cant get rid of it. I hope the people who make these things die! I tell you, they should DIE!!!

Song Like To Share

Strong

My breath smells of a thousand fags

And when I'm drunk I dance like me Dad

I've started to dress a bit like him

Early morning when I wake up

I look like Kiss but without the make up

And thats a good line to take it to The bridge

And you know and you know

''Cause my life's a mess

And I'm trying to grow so beforeI'm old I'll confess

You think that I'm strong you're wrong

You're wrong

I'll sing my song my song my song

My bed's full of takeaways and fantasies of easy lays

The pause button's broke on my video

And is this real 'cause I feel fake,

Oprah Winfrey, Rikki Lake

Teach me things I don't need to know

And you know and you know

''Cause my life's a mess

And I'm trying to grow so beforeI'm old I'll confess

You think that I'm strong you're wrong

You're wrong

I'll sing my song my song my song

If I did it all again I'd be a nun

The rain was never cold when I was young

I'm still young we're still young

Step inside the sun

And you know and you know

''Cause my life's a mess

And I'm trying to grow
You think that I'm strong you're wrong

You're wrong I'll sing my song my song my song

Life's too short to be afraid

So take a pill to numb the pain

You don't have to take the blame

Better Man

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time
As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience

'Cause it's not my fault

I know I've been taught

To take the blame

Rest assured my angels

Will catch my tears

Walk me out of hereI'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Once you've found that lover

You're homeward bound

Love is all around

Love is all around
I know some have fallen

On stony ground

But Love is all around

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doin' all I can

To be a better man

SUNDAY BEATS THE CRAP OUT OF ME

It’s Sunday today, the day of the week that God rested. Where we must also rest and spend the time with our family and increase our spirituality, this what I have been taught from the beginning of my life. Yup, I grew up in a very religious family. Where the main purpose of our life is to serve Him. Well, that is what I did before I started hating myself. I was the obedient son, the friend who is always there, the intelligent student, everything you can ask for. I lived for others, making sure that everyone is happy, that if anybody were sad, I would always be there to be a shoulder to cry on.

Then I started hating myself, it all started when I losing my motivation in being the person I was. People around me think I was perfect, that I should be the best in what I do. Nobody seems to realize I had weaknesses, and that I also need to be cared and to need someone to cry on. But when I try to tell them these things, they always had some explanation and solution for me, when all I wanted was for someone to listen. Well, this really scared and hurt in a way I have never known before, so I decided to just hide in a mask of happiness, when deep inside I was already dying.

Then she came into my life. For the first time in my life, I thought I could be who I am. Yes, I was happy. Never been so happy in life. But like all good things in life it had to end. It started slowly, until it was to late for me to save. It really crushed me, but as always, people still expected me to be who I was before. Still taking time picking up the pieces but eventually I have to be what I was before. But deep inside I wish someone would find and save me from what I have become.

Nihilist Bear


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HeHeHe

THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR NOT SLEEPING FOR TWO WEEKS

Last night I was really depressed (again). So decided to type what was inside my head.
(note this was all spontaneous. So had no time to think on what im typing.)

What is happening to me I can’t understand my self anymore? Why am I destroying my life? Is this because of April I hope not come on its stupid she doesn’t love me remember she betrayed you but why are not angry with her why do you still care for why do still freaking love her after all she has done to you remember she doesn’t care about your feelings remember when she called and asked you if something happen between the two of you last September coz they were already together and she wanted to assure herself that she didn’t cheat on him how about you didn’t she cheat on you yeah we all know that your understanding and that you’ll `1never angry but how about your feelings hasn’t she considered them for you but what did you freaking do you freaking supported her why do you always have to be there for everybody when it freaking hurts why you just who you are why cant scream out loud what you feel why do have to consider everybody feelings before yours what have you done to deserve this you were always willing to obey yeah I know you make mistake but come on your only human cant they cut you some slack. You always what they want you to be well until you met her that change everything for once you showed what you feel inside but you the idiot got things out of hands your emotions being kept up all those years began to pour out and you have no way of controlling it yeah kept that mask until you went on a mission you cant control anymore you cant hide you cant put that smile anymore coz deep inside you feel like crap you feel hell you don’t even know what you feel anymore you were so fuck up you just had to runaway and that made things worse you were just digging your own grave you got something great going then you destroy it what wrong with you why cant you hate everyone why cant you blame someone wit what happen to your life coz you cant you just love everybody you care so much you don’t mind getting hurt` now look at you know your parents2 don’t know what to do anymore your kin man you cant look in their eyes and to hate your self your even going to get excommunicated for crying out loud the only thing you hold true is rejecting you now yeah they all say you can come back you can fix your but the damage is already done your freaking hopeless now I don know what to do example why do I still care for her why in the world can you sense if she not felling good why do you have to be idiot to make her feel better s you can get hurt again that stupid it crazy now your freaking scared of showing what you really feel inside and you hate yourself for not showing it either man your freaking crazy you don’t even know what you want let me guess you don’t even know who you really you only fantasized but come on your even you fantasy are for other people you don’t dream for yourself anymore here a question do you know who you are and you don’t know if you love yourself maybe that’s it just hide and never who 1you really are2 just smile andthi9bnk everything is find so no one has to worry about you so you can die inside yourself and no one will 1ever know you know why you cant kill yourself coz everybody going to get hurt and we don’t want that do we so put on a mask hide in the shadows where you belong and let URIM be there for everyone so everyone else could forget there worries about you. Come now URIM will take of everyone he will help everyone be the a shoulder that everyone could cry the strong one the brave the wise the patient the obedient URIM not you who would like you any a guy who cant control his emotion who always hurt the2 one he cares for the one unreliable one the problem who would want tthat1 tell me who come on even God would hate you but not URIM the one everybody want the obedient servant, the honorable son, friend, brother that everybody wants not you he you don’t even like yourself why should anyone like coz you don’t even know who you are. You feel cold and empty inside do you. You deserve it anyway why you ask I don’t know but what’s happening to you deserve it. Your excuse is that your crazy that no excuse you cause yourself to become like this it not anybody fault it all your fault it nobody fault its all yours YOURS!!!!! You understand so accept it your worthless like I said hide runaway don’t show yourself 3anymore let URIM do the job he’s good at it your not your worthless I don’t even know why I’m bothering myself to tell you this don’t you get you should die and let URIM do your job so you agree with me now that’s good now here what we are going you hide in you little corner and let us do the job. What you change your mind why you feel that lying is bad yeah your right but come now at least they don’t get hurt coz of you I just want you to know who I am but I dub you unforgiven what are you doing quoting from songs you idiot that wont work no one will listen to you no believes on you remember mama called you unreliable and whose fault is it yours nobody but you it your fault again yours!!!! Hasn’t this proved anything yet wear URIM again please for everyone peace we don’t care if you get hurt wee just want URIM back okay please we beg for the sake of every one sanity.

Again, that is what happen if you don't get to sleep for a very long time

First night

So this is how it works. Well if anyone is reading this, and wondering why in the world am i doing this? Its because this is the only way I can really express myself now. Got hurt really bad cuz I showed my emotions. Now Im even fucking scared of smiling for fear of getting hurt.

Haven't slept for days now. I just lie in my bed feeling sick and tired of myself for hours until the sun rises. Then I have to act that everything is fucking okay in my life. Some of you might ask why am i feeling like this well that another story.