Michael V.

Michael V. has done it again for the "nth" time he has made the philippines a happier and funnier place to live in. I enjoy watching this video cause it reminds me of a lot of people. Hehehe! 2 thumbs up for Michael V.

Really exhausted right now, but very happy...

The Nativity

I watched “the nativity” yesterday with Aprile. It was a very good movie, which gave a new perspective to the nativity story. It gave equal focus to Mary and Joseph, giving new meaning to the line “Joseph is good man. I actually enjoyed listening to the wise men especially Balthazar’s need for dates and nuts

Something in my heart stirred while watching the movie. It’s just as if I yearn for something and I was near the thing that could fill up the emptiness in my soul.

I just have one problem with movie though and I think it is just me but the angel Gabriel just gives me the creeps for some reason.

RECAP

My life has been quite eventful lately. It has its difficulties but it been interesting otherwise. Still working (thank heavens!) and still broke. Hehehe! It has been getting a little stressful due to the paperwork but still manageable. I actually find myself having fun sometimes.

I had a couple of problems with some friends that I rather not discuss here, but I do feel bad that they feel that way but I guess that’s just me and being a stiff and a square also makes you not good with politics and social relationships (hmmmm, explains why I like paperwork).

My crush is going home in a couple back in to Korea. I am going to miss her but I guess but that is life and she needs to back where she belongs. At least, I get to hangout with her before she goes.

I don’t have sleep yet. I have been up for 48 hours now. I was up all night with the tropa playing Giovanni chronicles. I’ll always be thankful for Tobie and the group for letting me join them. I really need to play. It’s my way of relieving the stress.

I really miss Pia and hopes she comes back before Christmas.

chickens

Just something to make us smile. Brings some nostalgia to my life

SOMEBODY TO LOVE

Can.. (anybody find me somebody to love?)
(ooh...)

Each morning I get up, I die a little
Can't barely stand on my feet
| Take a look in the mirror and cry
|(Take a look at yourself, in the mirror, and cry! Yeah, yeah)
Lord what you're doing to me
|I have spent all my years in believing you
|(ooh, ooh believing you)
_
|But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
|(I just can't get no relief, Lord!)


Somebody, (somebody), oh somebody (somebody)
| Can anybody find me somebody to love?
|(anybody find me) Yeah..

I work (he works hard) every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end (At the end of the day)
I take home
|(goes home, goes home on his own)
| my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray (praise the Lord!)
|Till the tears run down from my eyes, Lord!
|(ooh, ooh, ooh Lord!)

Somebody (somebody), ooh somebody! (please)
|Can anybody find me - somebody to love?
|(Can anybody find me)

(He works hard)
Everyday (everyday)
|And I try and I try and I try
|(I try and I try and I try)
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
I got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
|(He's got nobody left to believe)
(Yeah yeah yeah yeah)

(Ooh Lord)
Oh Somebody, ooh (somebody)
|Anybody find me
|(anybody find me)
Somebody to love?
(Can, anybody, find me, someone to love?)

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (you just keep losing, and losing)
I'm ok, I'm alright (he's alright, he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (yeah, yeah)
I just gotta get out of this
|Prison cell
|(ooh, ooh, Prison cell)
_
|Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!
|(Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord! )

Find me somebody to love (x11)
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?
Find me somebody to love (x8)

I'm proud to be a Filipino

Well, finally found out who finished the last episode of the "trilogy" of their fights. It was kinda short but satisfying, as expected from the both of them.

Pacquiao's and Morales' has really brought boxing for us to a new level. Its no longer two men beating the crap out of each other, its a matter of national pride. Both men carry on their backs the name of their country a "really big " responsibility. In the end, it was Pacquiao who emerge victorious, and we are forever grateful for what he has done for our country's pride. To Morales, well he did the good fight and to him I give my respect.

ALCOHOL

Great news people!!! I got drunk last night and can't remember a damn thing that happened at certain point. I really feel stupid right now, plus have a massive headache. I sometimes ask myself why in the world I'm doing these things. I used to hate alcohol and everything it stands for, and here I am being one of them.

And whoever gave me the idea I can go one on one with a korean. I know she's a girl, but she drinks regularly and she can hold her alcohol. I think blurted out a lot of things considering I'm very honest and no control on what I saying when I'm drunk.

I wish give more details but no I have idea of what happened. I can't even remember how I got home.

balloons and weird balls

I tried something new lately. I made balloon sculptures. It was actually fun making them. hehehe

I finally figured out what this thing is. Its actually a massage ball hence the antennas. I was laughing so hard when somebody explained it to me.

wheezing

Right now, I'm here sitting in front of the computer barely breathing (I'm having an asthma attack). I feel so helpless, because I can't do anything. I wish I could do something aside from stare at the computer and wheeze the hours away.

I really miss my friends. All I do is go to work and slave the hours away. I miss the care free days, where my only worry is how to survive the week with my allowance (I spent a lot of money on useless stuff). I'm being nostalgic again.

But life ain't bad. Yeah there are problems, but I can smile whenever I want and really feels great. Thinking too much is a problem but I come to accept that just me. I do too much introspection and that makes me me.

Work

And they say we don't work much

Cute

Here is something to put a smile on your faces :)
(Thanks Tom!)

Its so easy to fall in love

I have done it again!!! I have a song stuck in my again and its playing non-stop (this is all your fault tobs). It kinda ironic though that of all the songs its this one.

It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
People tell me love's for fools
Here I go, breaking all the rules
It seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, so doggone easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Oh, it seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, where you're concerned, my heart can learn
(It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh)
Oh-oh-oh
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
(guitarsolo)
Look into your heart and see
What your love book has set aside for me
It seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, so doggone easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Oh, it seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, where you're concerned, my heart can learn
(It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh)
Oh-oh-oh
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
(guitarsolo)
It seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, so doggone easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Yeah, it seems so easy
(It's so easy, it's so easy, it's so easy)
Oh, where you're concerned, my heart can learn
(It's so easy, it's so easy, Ooooh)
Oh-oh-oh
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
It's so easy to fall in love
(Wa-uh-oh)
It's so easy to fall in love

Self-Portrait SouthPark Style

Now I remember...

Now I remember why stayed I away from responsibility for the longest time. It is the "STRESS"!!! Hehehehe!!! Anyway, it honestly does feel good to be part of something growing. Unfortunately, my butt has been suffering for being stuck in chair for couple of hours. I really do miss horsing around and acting childishly. Some of my friends actually said that I have changed all of sudden.

Anyway, for those who hasn't heard of it yet I just got promoted from an agent to assistant team captain. I love my team; we are just a bunch of misfits, from the mentally insane (that's me) to the wallflowers (you who know are!). Also, I would like give special mention to our Ma’am Joana, for being the coolest team captain (Sipsip!).

The downside of the story is that I can't join the YSA conference next week. I really have to be there because of the level tests. I just can't leave my TC for two days, and with the work load we have it would be really difficult for her. Ang bait ko sobra!!!

What we do at work aside from work

Let me

This song has been bugging me ever since I first heard it live. I know its a shampoo commercial jingle, but who cares right. It took me awhile to know the title of the song but with much research and hard work I was able to know the title and lyrics of the song.

Let Me
Orange And Lemons


... Love
You turn my head, but instead

Refrain:
You turn my head, but instead
I feel so lonely
I feel for you, I've got to say
You put a spell on me
I open my eyes, softly and wide
Lovely flower, you're my sunshine
I open my eyes, softly and wide
Lovely flower, you're my sunshine


Light is filtering, your eyes are glimmering
Let me hold you, let me hold you
I think that it's a sign you've opened up the inner creases of your mind
Let me kiss you, let me kiss you

(Repeat Refrain)

Hope is signaling, happiness is beckoning
Let me love you, let me love you
I think that it's a sign, no more walls to keep me by your side
Let me touch you, let me touch you

(Repeat Refrain)

WANTED

I have no idea why posted these pictures I guess I just need to see myself in the net (pathetic). I do look like a guy in a tabloid ,wanted for something.

I forgot to mention that I lost my wallet while sleeping in a bus last Saturday. I don't know if somebody stole it or I just lost it, but one thing is for sure I'm officially bankrupt right now. I thought I had only a hundred bucks in there, but I remembered that I have a thousand pesos in there. I always have it my wallet for emergencies.
Well that's life, I just hope someone could help me out. Just 3 more days until pay day. I hope I survive.

Picture and bunnies

I finally figured out how to upload the pictures from my phone. It took me awhile to figure out the setting for the program (note: default does not always work). Anyway here are some pics.


The hot mama of our shift
(due to the lack of good looking females in our shift.)


Joy
(She's just Joy.)


Pie
(Ang Babaeng Bakla.)


I was adviced by my lawyers not to give anymore comments to the picture above, so not to add insult to injury.


The little Girl.
(Is that packaging tape on her hair?)

Hmmmm, life is getting pretty monotonous lately. Wake up around 2 o'clock in the morning. Go to work around three. Spend nine hours at work, doing the same routine everyday. Travel home for two hours. Gettitng really bored lately. I even started reading the dictionary again and that is getting really pathetic. I must get out more often, though no idea what to do.

EDGAR ALLAN POE

I'm now reading some of Edgar Allan Poe's works and have become fascinated on how this man thinks and the emotion invested in his works. This is one of his famous poems and like to share it.

The Raven

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
"'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating,
"'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you"- here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!" -
Merely this, and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
"Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice:
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more."

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore.
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning- little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blest with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered, "other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of 'Never - nevermore'."

But the Raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door;
Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking "Nevermore."

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then methought the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor.
"Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he hath sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted- tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore."
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that word our sign in parting, bird or fiend," I shrieked, upstarting -
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken!- quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!

Most recent picture.

This is me with one of the Korean Officers. Coffee and Milk (hehehe)

So Far...

My life has been weird but still puts a smile on my face. Weird in a way that I'm actually everything, including my problems and my "other" things that's been bothering me for awhile.

I'm still working and very close in getting myself regularize. It's kinda pathetic if you ask what do I intend to achieve in this job, which is to last for more than 6 months. I'm still here teaching Koreans on how to speak english and I'm being train as a assistant team captain. Turned out to be a good job.

Made some really friends at work, and I'm actually trusting some people with what's going on with my head. It's been awhile since I trusted myself to anyone and feels really good to know that I still can trust.

I have to admit though that my taste for women still hasn't change. I still end falling for women with emotional problems. I don't know what's my problems but I'm drawn to women with some sort of problem. Like one of my friends one said, "You really have a weird taste with women".

SONGS

I’ve been the needle and the thread
Weaving figure eights and circles round your head
I try to laugh but cry instead
Patiently wait to hear the words you’ve never said

Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry

I’m lifting you up
I’m letting you down
I’m dancing til dawn
I’m fooling around
I’m not giving up
I’m making your love
This city’s made us crazy and we must get out

This not goodbye she said
It is just time for me to rest my head
She does not walk she runs instead
Down these jagged streets and into my bed

Fumbling through your dresser door forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry

I’m lifting you up
I’m letting you down
I’m dancing til dawn
I’m fooling around
I’m not giving up
I’m making your love
This city’s made us crazy and we must get out

There’s only so much I can do for you
After all of the things you put me through




I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment
That's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away

And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

Chorus:
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

Chorus

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies thatI'll never believe

Chorus

I'm the one now
Cause I'm still here
I'm the one
Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

THE GOOD OL' DAYS

rants

I'm trying to get her out of my system. I try not to talk to her or even greet her in the process but these things that I have been doing has been eating me up inside. I think I'm over doing it, ignoring her and all but I have to do something about it. I want to have that dignity that I have lose a long time ago. I want to feel that care-free feeling that everyone is telling me about.

I feel so alone when everything going fine. I know I should be happy for them and all that shit, but I always become a figure in the background when good things happened. I know I'm becoming bitter and all but I can't help but wonder if there is more to this life of mine.( hmmmm, that sounded like a song.).

Here am I, ranting again about my life I just wish, somebody would save me (and people would say save yourself.)

Feelin' dumb

I have been singing this song since last friday. I feel so dumb right now because I really don't know what's goin on...

I have loved you only in my mind
But I know that there will come a time
To feel this feeling I have inside

You're a hopeless romantic is what they say
Falling in and out of love just like a play
Memorizing each line, I still don't know what to say
What to say...

Chorus:
Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly

Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day
I dream of you in the most special way
You're beside me all the time
All the time...

I have loved you and I always will
Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel
This feeling I have for you inside

I'm a hopeless romantic I know I am
Memorized all the lines and here I am
Struggling for words I still don't know what to say
What to say...

Chorus

Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly
Ev'ry minute, ev'ry second of the day I dream of you in the most special way
You're beside me all the time
All the time... all the time... all the time...

I guess, I should have expected that someone would ask me eventually about my standing in my religion(weakling!!!). But it still caught me off guard, that all I can do was smile and give the usual "its complicated" answer, avoiding the whole situation(hahaha!). It was funny when I had a chance to think about it. That after all I've been through(trust me on this part its been a lot), I still care. Is this remnants of my faith or a longing for something forgotten ( and with my memory in fragments).

It is true that there are times when I still yearn to be in His good graces again (yeah right). I still have that void inside me eating me slowly (feeling it but your enjoying it), with no solution in sight.(quitter!)

Tongue Tied

I feel stupid right now. I’m in love with someone but I couldn’t tell her in person. It’s kinda pathetic for me to be doing this and I should know better. When I’m with her it feels so right, that I forget all the plans and the words.

Don't Know What to Say
(Don't Know What to Do)
Ric Segreto

I have loved you only in my mind
But I know that there will come a time
To feel this feelin' I have inside

" You're a hopeless romantic" is what they say
Fallin' in and out of love just like a play
Memorizin' each line, I still don't know what to say
What to say

CHORUS
Don't know what to do whenever you are near
Don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears
When you pass by I could fly

Every minute, every second of the day
I dream of you in the most special ways
You're beside me all the time
All the time

I have loved you and I always will
Call it crazy but I know someday you'll feel
This feelin' I have for you inside

I'm a hopeless romantic, I know I am
Memorized all the lines and here I am
Strugglin' for words, I still don't know what to say
What to say

[Repeat CHORUS]
All the time [3x]

SONGS IN PLAYING IN HEAD

11am Lyrics

Seven am;
The garbage truck beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Eleven am,
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've madeAnd what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much'
Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.
Forgive my indecision... I am only a man.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?I
hope its you.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, the day has come and I want off that ride

To Be With You Lyrics

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
Come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

chorus

just to be the next to be with

chorus

just to be the next to be with you

EDUNARAKADA

Brian, Glen, and Alan

This really looks familiar in work. We actually have some similar characteristics with these three. Guess who's who in edunara.

LEADER OF THE BAND

An only child alone and wild
A cabinet maker's son
His hands were meant for different work
And his heart was known to none --
He left his home and went his lone and solitary way
And he gave to me a gift I know
I never can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

My brothers' lives were different
For they heard another call
One went to Chicago
And the other to St. Paul
And I'm in Colorado
When I'm not in some hotel
Living out this life I've chose
And come to know so well.

(Instrumental)

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom when it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, papa, I don't think I
Said 'I love you' near enough --

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.
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This has become my theme song at work for some strange reason. I have no idea why coz I was "dizzy" when it happened.

I have no Idea.

I found a picture of myself taken last year. I have know idea what was I thinking when this was taken, but I sure have gain a lot of weight. I really need to work out.

Pics

Here are some pics I got from a friend. I have some good ones in my phone but I'm still looking for a data cable for my phone.






My life has been turning out great lately. I'm actually happy with what I have. Yeah, its true that I don't have enough money and I'm still single when all my friends are getting married, but I feel a sense of satisfaction and I look forward to each and everyday.

95

Seen over 80 movies = you have no life.
Got this from Tobie's blog. Let's see....

Mark the ones you've seen. There are 168 movie titles on this list. Put your score in header and repost.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
( ) My First Mister
( ) The Virgin Suicides

Total: 5/11

( ) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total: 6/12

(x) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp

Total: 8/11

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total: 9/10

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
(x) Robots

Total: 6/10

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong

Total: 9/12

( ) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber

Total: 5/14

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards

Total: 3/9

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
(x) the Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask

Total: 6/14

(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
(x) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown

Total: 8/13

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2

Total: 6/12

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
( ) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) Terminator 2

Total: 7/12

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) Cruel Intentions 3
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total: 10/17

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin

Total: 7/11

GRAND TOTAL: 95/168
I have no life.

Chaos

English is really a crazy language. I just love it!!!

The Chaos (1922)
Gerard Nolst Trenité

Dearest creature in creation
Studying English pronunciation,
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse and worse.

I will keep you, Susy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy;
Tear in eye, your dress you'll tear;
Queer, fair seer, hear my prayer.

Pray, console your loving poet,
Make my coat look new, dear, sew it!
Just compare heart, hear and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word.

Sword and sward, retain and Britain
(Mind the latter how it's written).
Made has not the sound of bade,
Say-said, pay-paid, laid but plaid.

Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as vague and ague,
But be careful how you speak,
Say: gush, bush, steak, streak, break, bleak ,

Previous, precious, fuchsia, via
Recipe, pipe, studding-sail, choir;
Woven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, shoe, poem, toe.

Say, expecting fraud and trickery:
Daughter, laughter and Terpsichore,
Branch, ranch, measles, topsails, aisles,
Missiles, similes, reviles.

Wholly, holly, signal, signing,
Same, examining, but mining,
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war and far.

From "desire": desirable-admirable from "admire",
Lumber, plumber, bier, but brier,
Topsham, brougham, renown, but known,
Knowledge, done, lone, gone, none, tone,

One, anemone, Balmoral,
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel.
Gertrude, German, wind and wind,
Beau, kind, kindred, queue, mankind,

Tortoise, turquoise, chamois-leather,
Reading, Reading, heathen, heather.
This phonetic labyrinth
Gives moss, gross, brook, brooch, ninth, plinth.

Have you ever yet endeavoured
To pronounce revered and severed,
Demon, lemon, ghoul, foul, soul,
Peter, petrol and patrol?

Billet does not end like ballet;
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet.
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.

Banquet is not nearly parquet,
Which exactly rhymes with khaki.
Discount, viscount, load and broad,
Toward, to forward, to reward,

Ricocheted and crocheting, croquet?
Right! Your pronunciation's OK.
Rounded, wounded, grieve and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive and live.

Is your r correct in higher?
Keats asserts it rhymes Thalia.
Hugh, but hug, and hood, but hoot,
Buoyant, minute, but minute.

Say abscission with precision,
Now: position and transition;
Would it tally with my rhyme
If I mentioned paradigm?

Twopence, threepence, tease are easy,
But cease, crease, grease and greasy?
Cornice, nice, valise, revise,
Rabies, but lullabies.

Of such puzzling words as nauseous,
Rhyming well with cautious, tortious,
You'll envelop lists, I hope,
In a linen envelope.

Would you like some more? You'll have it!
Affidavit, David, davit.
To abjure, to perjure. Sheik
Does not sound like Czech but ache.

Liberty, library, heave and heaven,
Rachel, loch, moustache, eleven.
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed but vowed.

Mark the difference, moreover,
Between mover, plover, Dover.
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police and lice,

Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label.
Petal, penal, and canal,
Wait, surmise, plait, promise, pal,

Suit, suite, ruin. Circuit, conduit
Rhyme with "shirk it" and "beyond it",
But it is not hard to tell
Why it's pall, mall, but Pall Mall.

Muscle, muscular, gaol, iron,
Timber, climber, bullion, lion,
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor,

Ivy, privy, famous; clamour
Has the a of drachm and hammer.
Pussy, hussy and possess,
Desert, but desert, address.

Golf, wolf, countenance, lieutenants
Hoist in lieu of flags left pennants.
Courier, courtier, tomb, bomb, comb,
Cow, but Cowper, some and home.

"Solder, soldier! Blood is thicker",
Quoth he, "than liqueur or liquor",
Making, it is sad but true,
In bravado, much ado.

Stranger does not rhyme with anger,
Neither does devour with clangour.
Pilot, pivot, gaunt, but aunt,
Font, front, wont, want, grand and grant.

Arsenic, specific, scenic,
Relic, rhetoric, hygienic.
Gooseberry, goose, and close, but close,
Paradise, rise, rose, and dose.

Say inveigh, neigh, but inveigle,
Make the latter rhyme with eagle.
Mind! Meandering but mean,
Valentine and magazine.

And I bet you, dear, a penny,
You say mani-(fold) like many,
Which is wrong. Say rapier, pier,
Tier (one who ties), but tier.

Arch, archangel; pray, does erring
Rhyme with herring or with stirring?
Prison, bison, treasure trove,
Treason, hover, cover, cove,

Perseverance, severance. Ribald
Rhymes (but piebald doesn't) with nibbled.
Phaeton, paean, gnat, ghat, gnaw,
Lien, psychic, shone, bone, pshaw.

Don't be down, my own, but rough it,
And distinguish buffet, buffet;
Brood, stood, roof, rook, school, wool, boon,
Worcester, Boleyn, to impugn.

Say in sounds correct and sterling
Hearse, hear, hearken, year and yearling.
Evil, devil, mezzotint,
Mind the z! (A gentle hint.)

Now you need not pay attention
To such sounds as I don't mention,
Sounds like pores, pause, pours and paws,
Rhyming with the pronoun yours;

Nor are proper names included,
Though I often heard, as you did,
Funny rhymes to unicorn,
Yes, you know them, Vaughan and Strachan.

No, my maiden, coy and comely,
I don't want to speak of Cholmondeley.
No. Yet Froude compared with proud
Is no better than McLeod.

But mind trivial and vial,
Tripod, menial, denial,
Troll and trolley, realm and ream,
Schedule, mischief, schism, and scheme.

Argil, gill, Argyll, gill. Surely
May be made to rhyme with Raleigh,
But you're not supposed to say
Piquet rhymes with sobriquet.

Had this invalid invalid
Worthless documents? How pallid,
How uncouth he, couchant, looked,
When for Portsmouth I had booked!

Zeus, Thebes, Thales, Aphrodite,
Paramour, enamoured, flighty,
Episodes, antipodes,
Acquiesce, and obsequies.

Please don't monkey with the geyser,
Don't peel 'taters with my razor,
Rather say in accents pure:
Nature, stature and mature.

Pious, impious, limb, climb, glumly,
Worsted, worsted, crumbly, dumbly,
Conquer, conquest, vase, phase, fan,
Wan, sedan and artisan.

The th will surely trouble you
More than r, ch or w.
Say then these phonetic gems:
Thomas, thyme, Theresa, Thames.

Thompson, Chatham, Waltham, Streatham,
There are more but I forget 'em-
Wait! I've got it: Anthony,
Lighten your anxiety.

The archaic word albeit
Does not rhyme with eight-you see it;
With and forthwith, one has voice,
One has not, you make your choice.

Shoes, goes, does *. Now first say: finger;
Then say: singer, ginger, linger.
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, age,

Hero, heron, query, very,
Parry, tarry fury, bury,
Dost, lost, post, and doth, cloth, loth,
Job, Job, blossom, bosom, oath.

Faugh, oppugnant, keen oppugners,
Bowing, bowing, banjo-tuners
Holm you know, but noes, canoes,
Puisne, truism, use, to use?

Though the difference seems little,
We say actual, but victual,
Seat, sweat, chaste, caste, Leigh, eight, height,
Put, nut, granite, and unite.

Reefer does not rhyme with deafer,
Feoffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Dull, bull, Geoffrey, George, ate, late,
Hint, pint, senate, but sedate.

Gaelic, Arabic, pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific;
Tour, but our, dour, succour, four,
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.

Say manoeuvre, yacht and vomit,
Next omit, which differs from it
Bona fide, alibi
Gyrate, dowry and awry.

Sea, idea, guinea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria.
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean,
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.

Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion with battalion,
Rally with ally; yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, key, quay!

Say aver, but ever, fever,
Neither, leisure, skein, receiver.
Never guess-it is not safe,
We say calves, valves, half, but Ralf.

Starry, granary, canary,
Crevice, but device, and eyrie,
Face, but preface, then grimace,
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.

Bass, large, target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, oust, joust, and scour, but scourging;
Ear, but earn; and ere and tear
Do not rhyme with here but heir.

Mind the o of off and often
Which may be pronounced as orphan,
With the sound of saw and sauce;
Also soft, lost, cloth and cross.

Pudding, puddle, putting. Putting?
Yes: at golf it rhymes with shutting.
Respite, spite, consent, resent.
Liable, but Parliament.

Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew, Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, clerk and jerk,
Asp, grasp, wasp, demesne, cork, work.

A of valour, vapid vapour,
S of news (compare newspaper),
G of gibbet, gibbon, gist,
I of antichrist and grist,

Differ like diverse and divers,
Rivers, strivers, shivers, fivers.
Once, but nonce, toll, doll, but roll,
Polish, Polish, poll and poll.

Pronunciation-think of Psyche!-
Is a paling, stout and spiky.
Won't it make you lose your wits
Writing groats and saying "grits"?

It's a dark abyss or tunnel
Strewn with stones like rowlock, gunwale,
Islington, and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict and indict.

Don't you think so, reader, rather,
Saying lather, bather, father?
Finally, which rhymes with enough,
Though, through, bough, cough, hough, sough, tough??

Hiccough has the sound of sup...
My advice is: GIVE IT UP!

:)

Its been a while since I last heard this song. It made me smile at what at happen in my life. I hadn't found that person to hold me, but I'm doing to a lot of people lately and it made happy. I'm looking forward to that and what a beautiful day it would be.

The Knight

"Ever felt like a knight in shining armor rescuing a damsel in distress from a
dragon. Unfortunately, this princess has a taken a liking to dragons and you
have no choice but torescue her everytime."
Yes, this has been my life lately. The shoulder everyone can cry on. The friend you can count on no matter what happens. There is one particular person who keeps getting hurt, I was always there when she is down, but it seems I don't exist when she is happy. I feel so down and my heart always break when I see her sad, and I can do nothing but be there.
I do love her, I really do. I tried moving on with my life, tried using everything in the book to forget about it. But a certain demon (Jimi!!!) had to find some long forgotten thing buried inside of me and open it.
Now, I can love her from a distance. I'm that knight who had to rescue the princess everytime but is forgotten in time peace. I can only be remembered when she is sad and lonely.

IT KEEPS PLAYING IN MY HEAD.

Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you.
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new.
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind.
Suitcases of memories,
Time after .

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead.
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said .
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds.

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Quiet

Its been awhile since I was able to post anything here. Honestly, I have nothing to post. My life has been quiet lately. Aside from the fact I'm always been broke and still tongue tied when I'm in front of Pia. (GOD I MISS HER!) Each day not seeing her is killing me, though I'm also scared of what to say in front of her. Thats why I haven't seen her last week (STUPID IDIOT!).

Aside from those things my life has been very quiet lately. I think that's what happens when one's life is stress free. hehehehe!

Well, I'm not complaining. I actually like it this way. I don't have to think too much anymore. So I can honestly say that life is well for Brad (I forgot, my name is Urim.)

LORELAND

This is the only pic I have of our team building (more like a company outing), I actually got this from joe (thanks dude!). We had a great time and discovered a lot of different personalities.

Get well soon!!!

Kuya Carlo has been in the hospital for awhile. I just wish he would get better soon. I ask for your prayers that he would get well soon.

i feel so alone and empty right now im even suprise how in the world im able to type this entry. i'm losing all motivation to do anything its as if im in some dark place but why im feeling this ? I haev a life in front in me i have everything going well why am i feelin th is i dont konw feel like giving up right now. don t want to go back ther im so scared right now will someone pleae help i dont konow what todo help. I can hear them screaming again dont want to hurt anyone anymore lost to many people i care losing my grip agaain i feel so helpless right now help please anyone?

Smile

We all have problems in life, so here's something to brightens our day.

NOW THIS IS SAD

I just posted Utada Hikaru's song last saturday and suddenly I can relate to the song. I'll spare you the details of what happen lets just say it my stupidity with it comes to a person I love.

Anyway, I can hear the voices laughing right now at my pain. So if you need me I'll be at my room making friends with the shadows. :P

First Love

Fell in love with Utada again. Anyway, here is my favorite song with the english translation of the lyrics.



Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Last Night

Went out with joseph and company last night at greenvelt. It was sort of a farewell thing for my cousin since he's going out to his mission next saturday.


Shabu-shabu at Kwang Tong. Must remind myself that I have highblood and that crabs are reason I have it.


Elaine, Sheryl, and Edmund.


The ladies...


and the gen...errr...the men na lang we're not gentle eh.


God please don't let me get this big!


Mahangin talaga sa labas(thanks to the exhaust :P).

I think she fell in love already with the croc sculpture. She didn't want to leave it.


The streets were not safe from us.


Not even Pia Guanio (She was drunk anyway.)...