GRACE KELLY-MIKA

I wanna talk to you
The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears
I promise you it wont happen again
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie, mmm
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
Getting angry doesn't solve anything

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie mmm
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want
you want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!
uuuuuua
Humphry were leaving
kerching!

My new favorite song right now (thanks to Tobie). He sounded like Freddie Mercury and he sings about really interesting and amusing topics enjoy.

Movie Quotes

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Mrs. Robinson, you're trying to seduce Urim. Aren't you?

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You had me at Urim.

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EXPLANATION

I have been trying to escape reality for a long time. I guess that is what happens when you don’t face your problems and conflict in life. At first, it all great showing the illusion that you’re able get back at you’re life and live normally or possibly happy. But in the end, everything catches up to you and ending up getting worse than you use too.

I still have voices in my head frequently and fighting them is a losing battle. Nightmares are still there with less frequent but will still drain you of your courage to move on in life. Guilt is a constant companion with all the mistakes in life real or imagined (I honestly don’t know what really happened in some parts of my life). Disappointment and regret fills my mind daily. I tried to be strong, but I guess I’m really weak and in the end I just broke down.

I’m really sorry to those that are getting hurt because I honestly don’t know how to explain it. I’m just really scared right now and very weak.

Look! Celebrity Look-A-Likes!

Found this interesting site. My honey's look-a-likes were okay, but for some strange reason mine are almost all girls. Hehehe!

hmmmm

Something my honey wrote for me:

I reach out, yet you keep turning away.
What must I do to make you stay?
We're not all happy smiles and laughter.
We're not so shallow as a street gutter.
We are two people in love--
We are two people who love
...Right?
Why won't you just let us be,
Why won't you just let me be
A woman in love
The woman who loves
U.

Until then, I'll wait here, outside, on your doorstep.

Please let me in.

Don't worry hon, you're always inside me.

Back 2 Good

It's nothin,
It's so normal
You just stand there
I could say so much,
But I don't go there cuz I don't want to
I was thinkin if you were lonely
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know
At least not to the point we would think so

And everyone here
Knows everyone here is thinking 'bout somebody else
Well, it's best if we all keep it under our hats And I couldn't tell if anyone here was feelin the way I do,
But I'm lonely now,
And I don't know how to get it back to good

This don't mean that, you own me, well
This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell
Yeah, but things worked out just like you wanted...too
If you see me out you don't know me,
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room
Ah, to figure out just what I'm gonna do

Cause everyone here
Hates everyone here for doing just like they do
And it's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell
Why everyone here was doing me like they do
But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good

And everyone here
Is wondering what it's like to be with somebody else
And everyone here's to blame
And everyone here gets caught up in the pleasure or the pain
Yeah, well, everyone here hides shades of shame
Yeah, but looking inside we're the same, we're the same
And we're all grown now,
Yeah, but we don't know how
To get it back to good

Everyone here
Knows everyone here is thinking 'bout somebody else
And it's best if we all keep this
Under our heads, yeah, our heads
Yeah, see, I couldn't tell now,
If anyone here was feeling the way I do
But it's over now,
Yeah. I don't know how,
Guess it's over now,
There's no getting back to good

Random Thoughts for the Insane

I’m sitting right now with a thousand thoughts passing through my mind from fish to religion, to my goals and comic books. I don’t know if I’m still awake or sane just typing that’s all I know hmmm seems to be really dark but the lights turn on I’m sweating but its cold where am I oh yeah I’m in front of the computer hehehehe! Really horny maybe just lonely I guess oh shit I’m beginning to rhyme again. A turtle is flying to my room all green and really big Donatello is his name yes he is teenage mutant ninja turtle God why am I empty I hate you it’s really cold right now shut up Jared I’m not talking really now so back to the topic what’s topic oh yeah I forgot just rumbling I guess I want a kid really but can I raise them scared how can I take care of someone I want to eat. Haven’t been sleeping or am I asleep reality kinda in a blur lately. I’m fat and I need to lose weight tired but I don’t know why am I rambling I don’t how in the world should I know alone weird isn’t it how everything is doing okay and I have to destroy everything quitter hahahahaha!!! Shut up why you laughing really I’m not not talking to you so shut up okay stop fighting all of you this my turn says who me we don’t agree with you shut up I agree with him its his turn his one of us now don’t touch me I’ll talk to you all later let me finish bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Birthday Honeyness!!! (I'm beginning to sound like you :P) I'm really happy to be a part of your life. You are one of the strongest person I've ever meet. You make my life complete. Always smile honey. I love you.

Holy week

It's Black Saturday, and I'm all alone in the house, as my family went to Zambales for the weekend. I didn't go with them, because I was planning to have some rest and I wasn't in the mood to travel.

I was rummaging through some of my stuff, when I found some of my journals when I was a missionary. A lot of memories came rushing to my mind--most of them I'd rather forget. I then remembered a song written on the back of one of the journals. It almost made me cry when I tried singing it. I don't know why, but I know something is missing in my life, though I am not yet ready to face it.

And the Roman soldiers laughed,
as they saw their prisoner stumble
He did not revile them back,
wondering I asked who was this man so humble
And the woman by my side,
choked on her reply,
as she struggled not to weep
The tears flowed down her cheeks,
her heart breaking as she cried

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee

Then the crowd went pushing on,
and I felt compelled to follow
I knew that they were wrong,
but they mocked Him all along
Suddenly my heart felt hollow,
for they nailed Him to a tree
On a hill called Calvary,
as I stood there filled with wonder
The Heavens roared with thunder,
and again I heard this plea

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee

I could not forget his face,
and I wandered from that place
With the questions ever burning and each answer came with grace
And I knelt in earnest prayer,
and his memory still there
In the morning I felt joy beyond compare And the day turned into three,
morning found me in a garden
The gentle April breeze returned me to my knees
Pleading for a pardon,
and I can’t say when or why

You opened up my eyes,
his feet were there before
His hands were open o’er me,
His face I recognized

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee.

This week on...

I saw two movies this week and both reminded me of my childhood, or at least from what I remember.


First was "Rocky Balboa", I know it was kinda weird for a 60-something boxing the reigning heavy champion of the world, surviving 10 rounds, and losing only to a split decision. But Rocky always has been that way, being the "underdog". It wasn't really impressive, but it brought a lot of memories watching betamax with my uncles and cousins. Really good days.


Next was TMNT ( Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles). I don't why Aprile didn't want to watch this, but I was able to convince her after three days. Hehehe!!! Now, this really brought a lot of memories. Dressing up as the turtles, crying to my parents to buy me the toys, and shouting "COWABUNGA" every time the show was on TV. I still miss the nineties version, but I'm happy the personalities of the turtles hasn't changed.


I forgot to mention it here. Aprile and I bought a pair of hamsters a couple of months ago. They were really small then, but they're really fat now and cute. Hehehe!!!

To Aprile

I've tried writing something for my honey right, now but my mind is blank and I have no idea what to say. Guess I'll just do what others do. "IKANTA NA LANG!!!"

I was alone not long ago without a love to call my own
I was afraid and thought it wasn't meant for me
I didn't need anybody else that was what I would tell myself
And I believed that that was how it would be

I used to think that I was fine, oh, that I was doin' okay
I didn't know that I was blind I just went on along my way
I didn't know what I was missing till I felt your tender lips
Kissing my fears away
I'm so glad you're here to stay

Chorus:
I never had somebody I could lean on
I never had a shoulder I could cry on till I found you baby
Till I found you...
And I never had somebody I would think about
I never had someone I couldn't do without till I found you baby
Till I found you...

I had been badly hurt before
Ever since then I would ignore a chance for love-
I thought it was a lie
I learned to rely upon myself and
I thought I was doing well until you came up with something
I just cant deny

I used to think that I was fine
Oh that I was doing alright
I would go on and do my thing
Everyday and every night
I didnt know what I was missing till I felt your
Tender love fillin' me up inside
I love you with all my might

Chorus:
I never had somebody I could lean on
I never had a shoulder I could cry on till I found you baby
Till I found you...
And I never had somebody I would think about
I never had someone I couldn't do without till I found you baby
Till I found you...

And I never knew how good a love could feel..
Till I found you
And I never thought that a love could be so real...
Till I found you..

High School

I saw some of my high school friends last Saturday. It was great to see them and catch up on what happen to each others' lives. It was kinda funny that not much have change except gaining a couple of pounds and receding hairlines for some . We talk about almost any topic we could come up with especially past relationships and what happened to some of our friends and classmates. It's funny to note that most our batch are either married and have kids.

It was actually funny that my friends really saw as the distant, carefree, apathetic, and smart person. I actually never saw myself like that rather I saw myself as a goof ball.

High school was the best days of my life. It gave us enough freedom to do what we want, without the complications of life that we put upon ourselves. We were free, idealistic , optimistic, and slightly innocent (not really). I'm happy that I can look back into that part and smile with all the great memories I had.

Happy Monthsary!!!

Happy Monthsary honey!!! Wow! It's been three months now. That was fast, but I guess that really happens when you have fun together. Sorry about the late post. Anyway, I love you and thanks for everything. You give me reason to love life. I promise to be always be there and remain faithful to you. I LOVE YOU!!!

The 300

Aprile and I watched The 300 last Friday for our monthsary. I must say it's one of the best movies I've seen in my life. I was really happy that they really tried to stick to the comic book. The changes were understandable and acceptable. It was really awesome to see that the actors really portrayed the characters as in the comics.

Of course, as Tobie pointed out, there were some stuffs that I guess were funny, like with all the blood, gore, and flying body parts in the battles, they only got dirt on their bodies and Xerxes' obsession with men kneeling before him. Also, where did the horseman go after chopping the guys head? It seems that he disappeared after he chopped the guy's head off. It's just safe to assume then that he got killed of screen.

Lastly, I was reminded to use the washroom before a movie or you might spend an hour trying to hold your bladder.

February Update

I know it's kinda late, but I was really busy and the blasted DSL wasn't working. That's why I couldn't post anything for a while. I must say it was a good month, mostly because of my honey (I love you).

I lost my phone recently. It got stolen when I sleeping in the bus. I guess it was time for me to replace it. I already had it for more than three years, and it really needed to be replaced. Unfortunately, it had become more of a camera than an actual phone. Hehehe!









I also watched a lot of movies this month. Not counting the movies I watch in dvd I watched a total of at least eight movies, namely:

-Epic Movie
-Arthur and the Invisibles
-Curse of the Golden Flower
-Pursuit of Happyness
-The Fountain
-Music and Lyrics
-Ghost Rider
-The Number 23

I don't know where exactly I find the time to do this, but I guess if you want to spend time with someone you'll find a way. I'm happy to find someone who likes movies like me. I love you honey.

WAY BACK TO LOVE

This song has been playing my head for quite awhile now since I watched it last week. The song is so mushy and catchy it won't leave my head. Also, Aprile has been singing it incessantly.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through whithout a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Latin Quotes Part 1

I recently discovered this on the net. It's really interesting, check it out

Absum! - I'm outta here!
Aegroto, dum anima est, spes esse dicitur - It is said that for a sick man, there is hope as long as there is life
Aeronavis abstractio a prestituto cursu - Hijacking
Age. Fac ut gaudeam - Go ahead. Make my day!
Amicule, deliciae, num is sum qui mentiar tibi? -Baby, sweetheart, would I lie to you?
An nescis, mi fili, quantilla sapientia mundus regatur? - Don't you know then, my son, how little wisdom rules the world?
Animadvertistine, ubicumque stes, fumum recta in faciem ferri? - (At a barbeque) Ever noticed how wherever you stand, the smoke goes right into your face?
Appareo Decet Nihil Munditia? - Is It Not Nifty?
Apudne te vel me? - Your place or mine?
Aspice, officio fungeris sine spe honoris amplioris- Face it, you're stuck in a dead end job
Astra non mentiuntur, sed astrologi bene mentiuntur de astris - The stars never lie, but the astrologs lie about the stars
Bene, cum Latine nescias, nolo manus meas in te maculare - Well, if you don't understand plain Latin, I'm not going to dirty my hands on you
Bovina Sancta! - Holy cow!
Braccae illae virides cum subucula rosea et tunica Caledonia-quam elenganter concinnatur! - Those green pants go so well with that pink shirt and the plaid jacket!
Braccae tuae aperiuntur - Your fly is open
Brevior saltare cum deformibus mulieribus est vita- Life is too short to dance with ugly women
Brevior saltare cum deformibus viris est vita - Life is too short to dance with ugly men
Brevis esse latoro obscurus fio - When I try to be brief, I speak gobbledegook
Canis meus id comedit - My dog ate it
Caro putridas es! - You're dead meat
Carpe Cerevisi - Seize the beer!
caput tuum saxum immane mittam - I have a catapult. Give me all your money, or I will fling an enormous rock at your head
Cave canem, te necet lingendo - Beware of the dog, he may lick you to death
Cave canem - Beware of the dog
Cave cibum, valde malus est - Beware the food, it is very bad
Cave ne ante ullas catapultas ambules - If I were you, I wouldn't walk in front of any catapults
Certamen bikini-suicidus-disci mox coepit? - Does the Bikini-Suicide-Frisbee match start soon?
Certe, toto, sentio nos in kansate non iam adesse- You know, Toto, I have a feeling we're not inKansas anymore
Cogito sumere potum alterum - I think I'll have another drink
Corripe Cervisiam - Seize the beer!
Coruscantes disci per convexa caeli volantes -Flying saucers
Crapulam terriblem habeo - I have a terrible hangover
Credidi me felem vidisse! - I tought I taw a puddy tat!
Credo elvem etiam vivere - I believe Elvis lives
Cuiusvis hominis est errare; nullius nisi insipientis in errore perseverare - Any man can make a mistake; only a fool keeps making the same one
Cum catapultae proscriptae erunt tum soli proscript catapultas habebunt - When catapults are outlawed, only outlaws will have catapults
Cur etiam hic es - Why are you still here?
Da mihi basilia mille - Kiss me with a thousand kisses
Da mihi castitatem et continentiam, sed noli modo! - Make me chaste and pure, but not yet!
Da mihi sis bubulae frustrum assae, solana tuberosa in modo gallico fricta, ac quassum lactatum coagulatum crassum - Give me a hamburger, french fries, and a thick shake
Da mihi sis cerevisiam dilutam - I'll have a light beer
Da mihi sis crustum Etruscum cum omnibus in eo- I'll have a pizza with everything on it
De inimico non loquaris sed cogites - Don't wish ill for your enemy; plan it
Deus ex machina - A contrived or artificial solution. (literally, 'a god from a machine')
Di! Ecce hora! Uxor mea me necabit! - God, look at the time! My wife will kill me!Diabolus fecit, ut id facerem! - The devil made me do it!
Dic mihi solum facta, domina - Just the facts,
ma'amDuc, sequere, aut de via decede - Lead, follow, or get out of the way
Ducator meus nihil agit sine lagunculae leynidae accedunt - My calculator does not work without batteries
Duco ergo sum - I calculate therefore I am
Dum inter homines sumus, colamus humanitatem- As long as we are among humans, let us be humane. (Seneca)
Eram quod es, eris quod sum - I was what you are, you will be what I am. (grave inscription)
Ergo bibamus - Therefore, let us drink

Autobots, transform and roll out!

I can't wait to see it. I just wished they tried to stick to the original story.

FEBRUARY

Valentine’s Day is coming up next week, and happy to say that I’m not gonna be lonely. (HAHAHAHA!) We actually have lots of plans already for next week. I hope everything goes according to plan. Good thing I allowed some leeway for those spontaneous plans. Anyway, it's our monthsary tomorrow, and I’m still clueless on what to do for her.

I LOVE YOU HONEY!!!

SHABU-SHABU

Honey
( she said she looked fat. I love you!)

She looks sexy next to me.

I'm really getting fat.

Finally I got to access my blog. I was having problems accessing it for a couple of weeks already. I think it's because of the earthquake in Taiwan. Anyway, here are some pics (I look really fat). Lots of things happened recently but I have to say that I'm happy.