MARRIAGY

I finally meet Aprile’s older sister, Cherry, today when I visited her mom in the hospital. She was really okay and fun to be with, but I knew that there would be a problem when the thing called religion came up. As most of you know, I’m a Mormon and Aprile is a Catholic--“a devout Catholic.” We really stayed away from the issue, but I knew it would come out eventually.

So, the visit went well. When it was time for Cherry to leave, Aprile went down with her. It took some time for her to come back. I asked what they did, and she said they had a chat about a lot things, including me. I, being ever the curious asked what said about me. Everything was good until my religion came up. Her sister went a little apprehensive about me being of a different religion, and she was quite worried about Aprile changing her religion. She told her sister that everything was okay and she had no plans of changing hers, and it wasn’t a problem in our relationship and that I was okay with it (I really am).

We ended up talking about our plans for the future, and then she told me that she dreamed about having a Catholic marriage and already had a priest in mind.

Don’t get me wrong here. I would marry her no matter what, but I think I’ll burn to ashes once I step in a “church” at the moment. That might’ve been overly exaggerated, but God and I have not been in good terms for a while now. The idea of me getting married under any religion is not sitting very well with me. I still believe in everything about my faith, but there’s still this hate (excuse me for the word) inside me, that part of me that’s hurt, alone, bitter, and keeps on asking why. It’s funny that these feelings are still with me after all that’s been said and done. I know a lot of people would be sad and confused, but that’s just how I feel right now.

For Aprile, I love you and still love to marry you in the future. Don’t worry it about I’ll think of something. WUBBERS!!!

Smile!!!

First, Mika's new video, which made me have a great time watching. It's very entertaining and "happy". It also has a really good message. Even though, he and this video reminds of the Freddie Mercury and Fat-bottomed Girls, its really a matter of perspective I guess, as long as your having fun and happy I see nothing wrong with it.



On my side of the planet, a very good example why I really don't watch local movies. It's suppose to be a action movie but it turns out to be a parody of all good action movies. Exploding obviously fake helicopters, heroes that could stand a beating would kill a human, able to shoot an automatic rifle with one hand, and of course crappy lines. Ito lang ang masasabi ko, SAGING LANG SANGING LANG ANG MAY PUSO!!!

Fantastic Four

Just got to see Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer. At first, I wasn't expecting much from it , but it turned out pretty well. I liked the way they tried to stick to the comics as much as possible and the surfer was pretty cool.



I even liked how they portrayed Galactus, considering he was a giant that looked like this.



The only thing that weirded me out was when the surfer brought the Invisible Woman back from the dead. I never thought he could do that. All in all it was a pretty good movie and worth your money.

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen…

I found some old songs in my small collection. I never thought that I have this song and as I was listening to it some really good thoughts especially on the sunscreen :)

Heroes

I've been playing Heroes of Might and Magic V for awhile now. Its a turn-based strategy game (for us who does not have lightning reflexes and sometimes what to eat while playing :>). It;s also one of those games that you start a map when there is still daylight and half-way through the map it's already dark.

It's not as good as the first three but it still better than the fourth. I'm still a long way to go and I actually just downloaded the expansion.

GRACE KELLY-MIKA

I wanna talk to you
The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears
I promise you it wont happen again
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie, mmm
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
Getting angry doesn't solve anything

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie mmm
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want
you want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
walk out the door!
uuuuuua
Humphry were leaving
kerching!

My new favorite song right now (thanks to Tobie). He sounded like Freddie Mercury and he sings about really interesting and amusing topics enjoy.

Movie Quotes

Being referred as a thing has never been so much fun... hehehehe!

The power of Urim compels you.

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Mrs. Robinson, you're trying to seduce Urim. Aren't you?

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You had me at Urim.

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EXPLANATION

I have been trying to escape reality for a long time. I guess that is what happens when you don’t face your problems and conflict in life. At first, it all great showing the illusion that you’re able get back at you’re life and live normally or possibly happy. But in the end, everything catches up to you and ending up getting worse than you use too.

I still have voices in my head frequently and fighting them is a losing battle. Nightmares are still there with less frequent but will still drain you of your courage to move on in life. Guilt is a constant companion with all the mistakes in life real or imagined (I honestly don’t know what really happened in some parts of my life). Disappointment and regret fills my mind daily. I tried to be strong, but I guess I’m really weak and in the end I just broke down.

I’m really sorry to those that are getting hurt because I honestly don’t know how to explain it. I’m just really scared right now and very weak.

Look! Celebrity Look-A-Likes!

Found this interesting site. My honey's look-a-likes were okay, but for some strange reason mine are almost all girls. Hehehe!

hmmmm

Something my honey wrote for me:

I reach out, yet you keep turning away.
What must I do to make you stay?
We're not all happy smiles and laughter.
We're not so shallow as a street gutter.
We are two people in love--
We are two people who love
...Right?
Why won't you just let us be,
Why won't you just let me be
A woman in love
The woman who loves
U.

Until then, I'll wait here, outside, on your doorstep.

Please let me in.

Don't worry hon, you're always inside me.

Back 2 Good

It's nothin,
It's so normal
You just stand there
I could say so much,
But I don't go there cuz I don't want to
I was thinkin if you were lonely
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know
At least not to the point we would think so

And everyone here
Knows everyone here is thinking 'bout somebody else
Well, it's best if we all keep it under our hats And I couldn't tell if anyone here was feelin the way I do,
But I'm lonely now,
And I don't know how to get it back to good

This don't mean that, you own me, well
This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell
Yeah, but things worked out just like you wanted...too
If you see me out you don't know me,
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room
Ah, to figure out just what I'm gonna do

Cause everyone here
Hates everyone here for doing just like they do
And it's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell
Why everyone here was doing me like they do
But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good

And everyone here
Is wondering what it's like to be with somebody else
And everyone here's to blame
And everyone here gets caught up in the pleasure or the pain
Yeah, well, everyone here hides shades of shame
Yeah, but looking inside we're the same, we're the same
And we're all grown now,
Yeah, but we don't know how
To get it back to good

Everyone here
Knows everyone here is thinking 'bout somebody else
And it's best if we all keep this
Under our heads, yeah, our heads
Yeah, see, I couldn't tell now,
If anyone here was feeling the way I do
But it's over now,
Yeah. I don't know how,
Guess it's over now,
There's no getting back to good

Random Thoughts for the Insane

I’m sitting right now with a thousand thoughts passing through my mind from fish to religion, to my goals and comic books. I don’t know if I’m still awake or sane just typing that’s all I know hmmm seems to be really dark but the lights turn on I’m sweating but its cold where am I oh yeah I’m in front of the computer hehehehe! Really horny maybe just lonely I guess oh shit I’m beginning to rhyme again. A turtle is flying to my room all green and really big Donatello is his name yes he is teenage mutant ninja turtle God why am I empty I hate you it’s really cold right now shut up Jared I’m not talking really now so back to the topic what’s topic oh yeah I forgot just rumbling I guess I want a kid really but can I raise them scared how can I take care of someone I want to eat. Haven’t been sleeping or am I asleep reality kinda in a blur lately. I’m fat and I need to lose weight tired but I don’t know why am I rambling I don’t how in the world should I know alone weird isn’t it how everything is doing okay and I have to destroy everything quitter hahahahaha!!! Shut up why you laughing really I’m not not talking to you so shut up okay stop fighting all of you this my turn says who me we don’t agree with you shut up I agree with him its his turn his one of us now don’t touch me I’ll talk to you all later let me finish bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Birthday Honeyness!!! (I'm beginning to sound like you :P) I'm really happy to be a part of your life. You are one of the strongest person I've ever meet. You make my life complete. Always smile honey. I love you.

Holy week

It's Black Saturday, and I'm all alone in the house, as my family went to Zambales for the weekend. I didn't go with them, because I was planning to have some rest and I wasn't in the mood to travel.

I was rummaging through some of my stuff, when I found some of my journals when I was a missionary. A lot of memories came rushing to my mind--most of them I'd rather forget. I then remembered a song written on the back of one of the journals. It almost made me cry when I tried singing it. I don't know why, but I know something is missing in my life, though I am not yet ready to face it.

And the Roman soldiers laughed,
as they saw their prisoner stumble
He did not revile them back,
wondering I asked who was this man so humble
And the woman by my side,
choked on her reply,
as she struggled not to weep
The tears flowed down her cheeks,
her heart breaking as she cried

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee

Then the crowd went pushing on,
and I felt compelled to follow
I knew that they were wrong,
but they mocked Him all along
Suddenly my heart felt hollow,
for they nailed Him to a tree
On a hill called Calvary,
as I stood there filled with wonder
The Heavens roared with thunder,
and again I heard this plea

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee

I could not forget his face,
and I wandered from that place
With the questions ever burning and each answer came with grace
And I knelt in earnest prayer,
and his memory still there
In the morning I felt joy beyond compare And the day turned into three,
morning found me in a garden
The gentle April breeze returned me to my knees
Pleading for a pardon,
and I can’t say when or why

You opened up my eyes,
his feet were there before
His hands were open o’er me,
His face I recognized

Oh Lord my Redeemer,
thou has done so much for me
Oh Lord my Redeemer,
all my love I give to thee.

This week on...

I saw two movies this week and both reminded me of my childhood, or at least from what I remember.


First was "Rocky Balboa", I know it was kinda weird for a 60-something boxing the reigning heavy champion of the world, surviving 10 rounds, and losing only to a split decision. But Rocky always has been that way, being the "underdog". It wasn't really impressive, but it brought a lot of memories watching betamax with my uncles and cousins. Really good days.


Next was TMNT ( Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles). I don't why Aprile didn't want to watch this, but I was able to convince her after three days. Hehehe!!! Now, this really brought a lot of memories. Dressing up as the turtles, crying to my parents to buy me the toys, and shouting "COWABUNGA" every time the show was on TV. I still miss the nineties version, but I'm happy the personalities of the turtles hasn't changed.


I forgot to mention it here. Aprile and I bought a pair of hamsters a couple of months ago. They were really small then, but they're really fat now and cute. Hehehe!!!

To Aprile

I've tried writing something for my honey right, now but my mind is blank and I have no idea what to say. Guess I'll just do what others do. "IKANTA NA LANG!!!"

I was alone not long ago without a love to call my own
I was afraid and thought it wasn't meant for me
I didn't need anybody else that was what I would tell myself
And I believed that that was how it would be

I used to think that I was fine, oh, that I was doin' okay
I didn't know that I was blind I just went on along my way
I didn't know what I was missing till I felt your tender lips
Kissing my fears away
I'm so glad you're here to stay

Chorus:
I never had somebody I could lean on
I never had a shoulder I could cry on till I found you baby
Till I found you...
And I never had somebody I would think about
I never had someone I couldn't do without till I found you baby
Till I found you...

I had been badly hurt before
Ever since then I would ignore a chance for love-
I thought it was a lie
I learned to rely upon myself and
I thought I was doing well until you came up with something
I just cant deny

I used to think that I was fine
Oh that I was doing alright
I would go on and do my thing
Everyday and every night
I didnt know what I was missing till I felt your
Tender love fillin' me up inside
I love you with all my might

Chorus:
I never had somebody I could lean on
I never had a shoulder I could cry on till I found you baby
Till I found you...
And I never had somebody I would think about
I never had someone I couldn't do without till I found you baby
Till I found you...

And I never knew how good a love could feel..
Till I found you
And I never thought that a love could be so real...
Till I found you..

High School

I saw some of my high school friends last Saturday. It was great to see them and catch up on what happen to each others' lives. It was kinda funny that not much have change except gaining a couple of pounds and receding hairlines for some . We talk about almost any topic we could come up with especially past relationships and what happened to some of our friends and classmates. It's funny to note that most our batch are either married and have kids.

It was actually funny that my friends really saw as the distant, carefree, apathetic, and smart person. I actually never saw myself like that rather I saw myself as a goof ball.

High school was the best days of my life. It gave us enough freedom to do what we want, without the complications of life that we put upon ourselves. We were free, idealistic , optimistic, and slightly innocent (not really). I'm happy that I can look back into that part and smile with all the great memories I had.

Happy Monthsary!!!

Happy Monthsary honey!!! Wow! It's been three months now. That was fast, but I guess that really happens when you have fun together. Sorry about the late post. Anyway, I love you and thanks for everything. You give me reason to love life. I promise to be always be there and remain faithful to you. I LOVE YOU!!!

The 300

Aprile and I watched The 300 last Friday for our monthsary. I must say it's one of the best movies I've seen in my life. I was really happy that they really tried to stick to the comic book. The changes were understandable and acceptable. It was really awesome to see that the actors really portrayed the characters as in the comics.

Of course, as Tobie pointed out, there were some stuffs that I guess were funny, like with all the blood, gore, and flying body parts in the battles, they only got dirt on their bodies and Xerxes' obsession with men kneeling before him. Also, where did the horseman go after chopping the guys head? It seems that he disappeared after he chopped the guy's head off. It's just safe to assume then that he got killed of screen.

Lastly, I was reminded to use the washroom before a movie or you might spend an hour trying to hold your bladder.

February Update

I know it's kinda late, but I was really busy and the blasted DSL wasn't working. That's why I couldn't post anything for a while. I must say it was a good month, mostly because of my honey (I love you).

I lost my phone recently. It got stolen when I sleeping in the bus. I guess it was time for me to replace it. I already had it for more than three years, and it really needed to be replaced. Unfortunately, it had become more of a camera than an actual phone. Hehehe!









I also watched a lot of movies this month. Not counting the movies I watch in dvd I watched a total of at least eight movies, namely:

-Epic Movie
-Arthur and the Invisibles
-Curse of the Golden Flower
-Pursuit of Happyness
-The Fountain
-Music and Lyrics
-Ghost Rider
-The Number 23

I don't know where exactly I find the time to do this, but I guess if you want to spend time with someone you'll find a way. I'm happy to find someone who likes movies like me. I love you honey.