Chaos

English is really a crazy language. I just love it!!!

The Chaos (1922)
Gerard Nolst Trenité

Dearest creature in creation
Studying English pronunciation,
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse and worse.

I will keep you, Susy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy;
Tear in eye, your dress you'll tear;
Queer, fair seer, hear my prayer.

Pray, console your loving poet,
Make my coat look new, dear, sew it!
Just compare heart, hear and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word.

Sword and sward, retain and Britain
(Mind the latter how it's written).
Made has not the sound of bade,
Say-said, pay-paid, laid but plaid.

Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as vague and ague,
But be careful how you speak,
Say: gush, bush, steak, streak, break, bleak ,

Previous, precious, fuchsia, via
Recipe, pipe, studding-sail, choir;
Woven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, shoe, poem, toe.

Say, expecting fraud and trickery:
Daughter, laughter and Terpsichore,
Branch, ranch, measles, topsails, aisles,
Missiles, similes, reviles.

Wholly, holly, signal, signing,
Same, examining, but mining,
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war and far.

From "desire": desirable-admirable from "admire",
Lumber, plumber, bier, but brier,
Topsham, brougham, renown, but known,
Knowledge, done, lone, gone, none, tone,

One, anemone, Balmoral,
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel.
Gertrude, German, wind and wind,
Beau, kind, kindred, queue, mankind,

Tortoise, turquoise, chamois-leather,
Reading, Reading, heathen, heather.
This phonetic labyrinth
Gives moss, gross, brook, brooch, ninth, plinth.

Have you ever yet endeavoured
To pronounce revered and severed,
Demon, lemon, ghoul, foul, soul,
Peter, petrol and patrol?

Billet does not end like ballet;
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet.
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.

Banquet is not nearly parquet,
Which exactly rhymes with khaki.
Discount, viscount, load and broad,
Toward, to forward, to reward,

Ricocheted and crocheting, croquet?
Right! Your pronunciation's OK.
Rounded, wounded, grieve and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive and live.

Is your r correct in higher?
Keats asserts it rhymes Thalia.
Hugh, but hug, and hood, but hoot,
Buoyant, minute, but minute.

Say abscission with precision,
Now: position and transition;
Would it tally with my rhyme
If I mentioned paradigm?

Twopence, threepence, tease are easy,
But cease, crease, grease and greasy?
Cornice, nice, valise, revise,
Rabies, but lullabies.

Of such puzzling words as nauseous,
Rhyming well with cautious, tortious,
You'll envelop lists, I hope,
In a linen envelope.

Would you like some more? You'll have it!
Affidavit, David, davit.
To abjure, to perjure. Sheik
Does not sound like Czech but ache.

Liberty, library, heave and heaven,
Rachel, loch, moustache, eleven.
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed but vowed.

Mark the difference, moreover,
Between mover, plover, Dover.
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police and lice,

Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label.
Petal, penal, and canal,
Wait, surmise, plait, promise, pal,

Suit, suite, ruin. Circuit, conduit
Rhyme with "shirk it" and "beyond it",
But it is not hard to tell
Why it's pall, mall, but Pall Mall.

Muscle, muscular, gaol, iron,
Timber, climber, bullion, lion,
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor,

Ivy, privy, famous; clamour
Has the a of drachm and hammer.
Pussy, hussy and possess,
Desert, but desert, address.

Golf, wolf, countenance, lieutenants
Hoist in lieu of flags left pennants.
Courier, courtier, tomb, bomb, comb,
Cow, but Cowper, some and home.

"Solder, soldier! Blood is thicker",
Quoth he, "than liqueur or liquor",
Making, it is sad but true,
In bravado, much ado.

Stranger does not rhyme with anger,
Neither does devour with clangour.
Pilot, pivot, gaunt, but aunt,
Font, front, wont, want, grand and grant.

Arsenic, specific, scenic,
Relic, rhetoric, hygienic.
Gooseberry, goose, and close, but close,
Paradise, rise, rose, and dose.

Say inveigh, neigh, but inveigle,
Make the latter rhyme with eagle.
Mind! Meandering but mean,
Valentine and magazine.

And I bet you, dear, a penny,
You say mani-(fold) like many,
Which is wrong. Say rapier, pier,
Tier (one who ties), but tier.

Arch, archangel; pray, does erring
Rhyme with herring or with stirring?
Prison, bison, treasure trove,
Treason, hover, cover, cove,

Perseverance, severance. Ribald
Rhymes (but piebald doesn't) with nibbled.
Phaeton, paean, gnat, ghat, gnaw,
Lien, psychic, shone, bone, pshaw.

Don't be down, my own, but rough it,
And distinguish buffet, buffet;
Brood, stood, roof, rook, school, wool, boon,
Worcester, Boleyn, to impugn.

Say in sounds correct and sterling
Hearse, hear, hearken, year and yearling.
Evil, devil, mezzotint,
Mind the z! (A gentle hint.)

Now you need not pay attention
To such sounds as I don't mention,
Sounds like pores, pause, pours and paws,
Rhyming with the pronoun yours;

Nor are proper names included,
Though I often heard, as you did,
Funny rhymes to unicorn,
Yes, you know them, Vaughan and Strachan.

No, my maiden, coy and comely,
I don't want to speak of Cholmondeley.
No. Yet Froude compared with proud
Is no better than McLeod.

But mind trivial and vial,
Tripod, menial, denial,
Troll and trolley, realm and ream,
Schedule, mischief, schism, and scheme.

Argil, gill, Argyll, gill. Surely
May be made to rhyme with Raleigh,
But you're not supposed to say
Piquet rhymes with sobriquet.

Had this invalid invalid
Worthless documents? How pallid,
How uncouth he, couchant, looked,
When for Portsmouth I had booked!

Zeus, Thebes, Thales, Aphrodite,
Paramour, enamoured, flighty,
Episodes, antipodes,
Acquiesce, and obsequies.

Please don't monkey with the geyser,
Don't peel 'taters with my razor,
Rather say in accents pure:
Nature, stature and mature.

Pious, impious, limb, climb, glumly,
Worsted, worsted, crumbly, dumbly,
Conquer, conquest, vase, phase, fan,
Wan, sedan and artisan.

The th will surely trouble you
More than r, ch or w.
Say then these phonetic gems:
Thomas, thyme, Theresa, Thames.

Thompson, Chatham, Waltham, Streatham,
There are more but I forget 'em-
Wait! I've got it: Anthony,
Lighten your anxiety.

The archaic word albeit
Does not rhyme with eight-you see it;
With and forthwith, one has voice,
One has not, you make your choice.

Shoes, goes, does *. Now first say: finger;
Then say: singer, ginger, linger.
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, age,

Hero, heron, query, very,
Parry, tarry fury, bury,
Dost, lost, post, and doth, cloth, loth,
Job, Job, blossom, bosom, oath.

Faugh, oppugnant, keen oppugners,
Bowing, bowing, banjo-tuners
Holm you know, but noes, canoes,
Puisne, truism, use, to use?

Though the difference seems little,
We say actual, but victual,
Seat, sweat, chaste, caste, Leigh, eight, height,
Put, nut, granite, and unite.

Reefer does not rhyme with deafer,
Feoffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Dull, bull, Geoffrey, George, ate, late,
Hint, pint, senate, but sedate.

Gaelic, Arabic, pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific;
Tour, but our, dour, succour, four,
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.

Say manoeuvre, yacht and vomit,
Next omit, which differs from it
Bona fide, alibi
Gyrate, dowry and awry.

Sea, idea, guinea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria.
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean,
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.

Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion with battalion,
Rally with ally; yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, key, quay!

Say aver, but ever, fever,
Neither, leisure, skein, receiver.
Never guess-it is not safe,
We say calves, valves, half, but Ralf.

Starry, granary, canary,
Crevice, but device, and eyrie,
Face, but preface, then grimace,
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.

Bass, large, target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, oust, joust, and scour, but scourging;
Ear, but earn; and ere and tear
Do not rhyme with here but heir.

Mind the o of off and often
Which may be pronounced as orphan,
With the sound of saw and sauce;
Also soft, lost, cloth and cross.

Pudding, puddle, putting. Putting?
Yes: at golf it rhymes with shutting.
Respite, spite, consent, resent.
Liable, but Parliament.

Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew, Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, clerk and jerk,
Asp, grasp, wasp, demesne, cork, work.

A of valour, vapid vapour,
S of news (compare newspaper),
G of gibbet, gibbon, gist,
I of antichrist and grist,

Differ like diverse and divers,
Rivers, strivers, shivers, fivers.
Once, but nonce, toll, doll, but roll,
Polish, Polish, poll and poll.

Pronunciation-think of Psyche!-
Is a paling, stout and spiky.
Won't it make you lose your wits
Writing groats and saying "grits"?

It's a dark abyss or tunnel
Strewn with stones like rowlock, gunwale,
Islington, and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict and indict.

Don't you think so, reader, rather,
Saying lather, bather, father?
Finally, which rhymes with enough,
Though, through, bough, cough, hough, sough, tough??

Hiccough has the sound of sup...
My advice is: GIVE IT UP!

:)

Its been a while since I last heard this song. It made me smile at what at happen in my life. I hadn't found that person to hold me, but I'm doing to a lot of people lately and it made happy. I'm looking forward to that and what a beautiful day it would be.

The Knight

"Ever felt like a knight in shining armor rescuing a damsel in distress from a
dragon. Unfortunately, this princess has a taken a liking to dragons and you
have no choice but torescue her everytime."
Yes, this has been my life lately. The shoulder everyone can cry on. The friend you can count on no matter what happens. There is one particular person who keeps getting hurt, I was always there when she is down, but it seems I don't exist when she is happy. I feel so down and my heart always break when I see her sad, and I can do nothing but be there.
I do love her, I really do. I tried moving on with my life, tried using everything in the book to forget about it. But a certain demon (Jimi!!!) had to find some long forgotten thing buried inside of me and open it.
Now, I can love her from a distance. I'm that knight who had to rescue the princess everytime but is forgotten in time peace. I can only be remembered when she is sad and lonely.

IT KEEPS PLAYING IN MY HEAD.

Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you.
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new.
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind.
Suitcases of memories,
Time after .

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead.
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said .
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds.

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Quiet

Its been awhile since I was able to post anything here. Honestly, I have nothing to post. My life has been quiet lately. Aside from the fact I'm always been broke and still tongue tied when I'm in front of Pia. (GOD I MISS HER!) Each day not seeing her is killing me, though I'm also scared of what to say in front of her. Thats why I haven't seen her last week (STUPID IDIOT!).

Aside from those things my life has been very quiet lately. I think that's what happens when one's life is stress free. hehehehe!

Well, I'm not complaining. I actually like it this way. I don't have to think too much anymore. So I can honestly say that life is well for Brad (I forgot, my name is Urim.)

LORELAND

This is the only pic I have of our team building (more like a company outing), I actually got this from joe (thanks dude!). We had a great time and discovered a lot of different personalities.

Get well soon!!!

Kuya Carlo has been in the hospital for awhile. I just wish he would get better soon. I ask for your prayers that he would get well soon.

i feel so alone and empty right now im even suprise how in the world im able to type this entry. i'm losing all motivation to do anything its as if im in some dark place but why im feeling this ? I haev a life in front in me i have everything going well why am i feelin th is i dont konw feel like giving up right now. don t want to go back ther im so scared right now will someone pleae help i dont konow what todo help. I can hear them screaming again dont want to hurt anyone anymore lost to many people i care losing my grip agaain i feel so helpless right now help please anyone?

Smile

We all have problems in life, so here's something to brightens our day.

NOW THIS IS SAD

I just posted Utada Hikaru's song last saturday and suddenly I can relate to the song. I'll spare you the details of what happen lets just say it my stupidity with it comes to a person I love.

Anyway, I can hear the voices laughing right now at my pain. So if you need me I'll be at my room making friends with the shadows. :P

First Love

Fell in love with Utada again. Anyway, here is my favorite song with the english translation of the lyrics.



Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Last Night

Went out with joseph and company last night at greenvelt. It was sort of a farewell thing for my cousin since he's going out to his mission next saturday.


Shabu-shabu at Kwang Tong. Must remind myself that I have highblood and that crabs are reason I have it.


Elaine, Sheryl, and Edmund.


The ladies...


and the gen...errr...the men na lang we're not gentle eh.


God please don't let me get this big!


Mahangin talaga sa labas(thanks to the exhaust :P).

I think she fell in love already with the croc sculpture. She didn't want to leave it.


The streets were not safe from us.


Not even Pia Guanio (She was drunk anyway.)...

Keep singing this for a while.

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Good morning

Isn't sad to know that the people who's opinion matters to you would be the one to say that you can't do it. When show that you are sad and hurt with what they just said, they would back it up with I'm only trying to tell you the truth and want you to realize that the world is like it will not care for you and not make decisions for you.

What the fuck are you trying to say? I know the world is cruel and all. I found it the hard way remember! Thats the world for you! Now where in the world would I find some peace?! Would it be nice to have someone or someplace where I can lower down my defenses and find solace and peace. I'm sick and tired of trying not care because I know I'll just get hurt, of making sure no one gets inside me, of trying to prove to everyone that okay and strong.

Maybe thats why I feel so empty inside, because I know if I disappear I would not be remembered anymore. I'm a ghost in people's lives I just pass through never to be remembered. Maybe I haven't found my place yet or I'm just blind. My death would very quiet indeed.

Love Struck!!!

I went out with Pia last Thursday (finally!). After trying to fit our schedule together (I'm beginning to hate for this reason). Anyway, we decided to watch x-men 3, unfortunately there wasn't any space for us and we didn't want to be out late, coz there still work tomorrow and she was kinda feeling sick. I could see her frustration in her face (man! was she cute!) and tried to cheer up. We just decided to have dinner (must always remind myself that she doesn't like some stuff that I eat) and just talked about some stuff. I was surprised that she all along that I had feelings for her and that she notice the small things I did. She also thanked me for being able to understand the restraint we had when I want to see her and talk to her (I was in cloud 9 already just by hearing that). After that we just hanged out at star bucks and just continued our conversation (which beats the crap out of talking to oneself a gazillion time). I was touched by the fact that she was able to open up to me considering some things. We didn’t realize what time it was until she went to the washroom. It was already 12 midnight (So much for going home early). So we just took a cab to her place and call it a night.

I got home around 1:30 am and I had work at 5:00 am, but I couldn’t sleep with all the excitement and butterflies inside my stomach. I went to work without any sleep (I had some stolen naps during this time). I’m still at cloud 9 right now. I just hope she feels the same way (even just a speck of it would do). Keeping my fingers cross.

A song for her!!!

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Irony

This is just an observation I have just notice just a couple of days ago at work. I have an officemate whom I only have conversations with, in the YM only. We see each other every day and the most we can say to each other is hello. Yes, there is the nod and all, but thats about it. So what gives! I'm usually a very talkative person at work and can bust out a compliment or two to anyone. This is really becoming pathetic I tell you. I'm not even in love with her. but i really get tongue tied when she's around.

THE DARK KNIGHT SINGS!!!

A scene from an episode of justice league unlimited season two. The man can sing! I can see it now Justice League the Musical. hehe

Somewhere out someone hates me!!!

The day started out great. I had lot of energy for work. I even enjoyed talking to my students in the morning and even made my documentation earlier than I use too. It was even detailed than what I usually did. So as you can see I was really happy. My officemates even commented on the unusual I have.

After lunch everything started to change. Because of my unusual perkiness I couldn't stay put in my station, so I started roaming around the floor and at the same moment my team captain stood up from his station and saw me. STRIKE ONE!!! Of course I was reprimanded for loitering for I was disturbing other teachers.

I immediately went to my seat and started reading some stuff related to work. Out of sheer boredom I guess. I fell asleep, again another big no no at work. I usually don't get caught when I sleep but this one is crazy! Someone suddenly said "are you sleeping Brad?", Then I saw my TC's face a few inches from mine! Good thing I didn't hit him or something. STRIKE TWO!

After being reprimanded again. I decided to check on my buddy at work and see if everything is ok. I usually don't chat with her because the IM is for official business only. But then we started making jokes. Again my TC was passing by when he saw it. STRIKE THREE!

I'm not mad at my TC or anything. It just that all of it happen in the span of two hours. Is it just me or I did something really bad to do this? or just plain luck. Well learn something important. Hope it sticks to me

Mahal ko si Blak Djak kasi mahilig ako sa sex

Piliin ang buwan ng iyong kapanganakan...

January- Nakipagsex ako kay
February- Sinampal ko si
March- Pinatay ko si
April- Tiningnan ko si
May- Nagmasturbate ako kasama si
June- Natulog ako katabi si
July- Tinawanan ko si
August- Sinaksak ko si
September- Dinuraan ko si
October- Mahal ko si
November- Sasapakin ko si
December- Kakagatin ko si

Tapos, piliin ang araw ng iyong kapanganakan...

1. Gloria
2. Erap
3. Fidel Ramos
4. Kuya Germs
5. Mahal
6. Nora Aunor
7. Pong Pagong
8. Blak Dyak
9. Nur Misuari
10. Miriam Santiago
11. Aga Muhlach
12. Mike Enriquez
13. Rustom Padilla
14. Aiza Seguerra
15. Winnie Monsod
16. Kiko Matsing
17. Ruffa Guttierez
18. Franklin Drilon
19. Willie Revillame
20. Mark Herras
21. Susan Roces
22. Ping Lacson
23. Ely Buendia
24. Ruby Rodriguez
25. Asi Taulava
26. Willie Garte
27. Rosanna Roces
28. Albert Einstein
29. Angel Locsin
30. Dora the Explorer
31. Cookie Monster

Ngayon, kunin ang ikatlong letra ng iyong apelyido...

A- kasi gutom ako
B- kasi wala akong magawa
C- Kasi luma na sapatos ko
D- kasi ang pangit nung nakasakay ko sa dyip
E- kasi summer na
F- kasi meron akong kulangot
G- kasi di ako nakapagbasa ng dyaryo
H- kasi idineklara yung state of emergency
I- kasi buntis yung kapitbahay ko
J- kasi talo sa sugal tatay ko
K- kasi wala akong pera
L- kasi andami kong labahin
M- kasi lilindol sa isang taon
N- kasi ang pangit ng palabas sa tv
O- kasi siksikan sa lrt eh
P- kasi dumaan yung crush ko
Q- kasi pinalitan yung tanod ng barangay sa lugar namin
R- kasi mahilig ako sa sex
S- kasi sawa na ako sa buhay ko
T- kasi di ako marunong magbike
U- kasi lasing ako
V- kasi puyat yung aso ko
W- kasi naglinis ako ng bahay kanina
X- kasi hindi malamig yung tubig sa ref
Y- kasi andaming tao sa SM
Z- kasi mahaba na buhok ko sa kili-kili

...tapos, gawing subject ang mga nakuhang sagot!


Got this from Isha!!!

Hehehe!

Hehehe! Life really has a dark sense of humor on saying that you are only human and allowed to mistakes once in a while. You can even get some words of wisdom from the most unusual from places and people.

Did something really stupid lately but for some reason I feel so happy right now. I haven't got any sleep but I'm still full of strength right now. I just wish I could remember most of the things I said.

One more thing, I wish it would had happened a little earlier.

Unforgiven

Ok I know that this are very old videos but hell I still love them.



New blood joins this earth
And quikly hes subdued
Through constant pain disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on hes known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will theyll take away

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
Hes battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

You labeled me
Ill label you
So I dub the unforgiven




Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

(Solo)

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you

Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
(So I dub thee unforgiven)

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known!

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free
Never me
'Cause you're unforgiven too!

The Code

I just finished watching today with a friend I really like, but why do I have a feeling I ended up as the third wheel again. hehehe

CLICK!!!

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Ain't she a beauty. I always wanted one, just 2 more months and you are mine.

On Other News...

I just sign my probationary contract at my job today. Finally I'll be decently paid after a month of living off an allowance. I can actually buy stuff I've been wanting for a while now.

Siegfred also finally came back from his two-year mission in davao I think. I haven't seen him yet, but maybe this sunday I will.

So everything is going according to plan in my life right now. Stay in the right course and everything will be smooth sailing.

Adrienne

I should have sang this song a long time ago, but I only recently discovered it. So this one for you (you know who you are). :P

One more thing. Leave me alone.



I've been thinking about you, my love
And all the crazy things that you put me through
Now I'm coming around, Throwing it back to you
Were you thinking of me when you kissed him
Could you taste me when you licked his skin
All the while I showerd you with trust and promises
What I'm needing now is some sweet revenge
To get back all that I lost then
I gave you all I had to give, but I could never reach you

Chorus :
Oh, Adrienne, I thought I knew you
Once again, you used me, used me
Adrienne, I should have left you
Long before you used me, Used me up

Spent my money, drove my car
I treated you like a shining star
But in my sky all burnt out you are
And I'll have the last laugh, when I see you walking with
some other guy
'Cause I know you're gonna end up all alone
So take these words, some good advice
All you've done's gonna come back twice
You never cared how much it hurt, I really need to tell you

Chorus

What I'm needing now is some sweet revenge
To get back all that I lost then.
I gave you all that I had to give, but I could never reach you

Chorus

Song Playing Inside my Head.

For You

I am a vision, I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows, faded existence
It was never good enough
Within the darkness, you were the light
That shines away
You're trapped in violence, I can be the man
That saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For you

Someone has changed me, something saved me
Now this is who I am
Although I was blinded, my heart let me find that
Truth makes a better man
I didn't notice that you were right in front of me
A mask of silence, we'll put away so we can see

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For you

For you

Within the darkness, you are the light
That shines away
In this blind justice, I can be the man
That saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up

You know it's true
You were there for me
And I'm there for you
For you
For you
For you

THE HEAT

ANG IIIIIINEEEEEEEEEEEET!!!! I'm sweating like a pig right now. Third time to take a bath since I got home from work.

Anyway, a friend showed a great blog: postsecret.blogspot.com . I kinda can relate to some of it. hehehe!

The Guide.

There has been an alarming increase of stupid people in the world today. So here something for them to help them in life.

The Guide for Stupid People

• Don’t eat rocks.
• Don’t take naps in the road.
• Don’t stoke fires with your fingers.
• Don’t throw a brick straight up.
• Don’t breathe car exhaust.
• If you ever meet the President, don’t offer him the surprise gift of
a firearm by whipping it suddenly out of your coat pocket.
• For all pertinent tasks, use a hammer, not your fist.
• Walk around toxic waste dumps, not through them.
• Don’t stargaze with friends on a hilltop in a thunderstorm and use
metal fishing rods as pointers.
• The stuff on the bottom of your shoe is not for internal consumption.
• If you need to get somewhere, and a freight train heading in the
direction you’re traveling just happens to be nearby, resist the urge to stand in
front of it and grab hold as it passes.
• If your want to pound on the radiator to tell the landlord to turn up
the heat, don’t do it with your head.
• Don’t flip off the Mafia.
• If you’re riding a bicycle down a hill, turn your head before you
spit.
• Wash behind your ears, not behind your eyes.
• Light birthday cake candles from back to front.
• Don’t shave with a lawn mower.
• Just because your body has orifices doesn’t mean you should put
things into them.
• Don’t stick screwdrivers into electrical outlets.
• Although they are sold in grocery stores, batteries are not food. Do
not break them open and drink what’s inside.
• The warning “Don’t try this at home” really means “Don’t try this at
all.”
• Don’t bathe in a tub full of snow.
• Don’t iron clothes while wearing them.
• The expression “Life in the fast lane” should not inspire you to live
in the road.
• Don’t eat hot coals.
• Don’t escape in to jail.
• Don’t wash floors with cough syrup.
• Don’t kick porcupines with bare feet.
• Don’t sled down hills with interstates at the bottom.
• Sell at most one of your kidneys.
• Don’t lie down in a cattle pen.
• Forks need carry food no farther than your mouth.
• Don’t test the strength of your skull with a nail gun.
• Only squeeze the handle end of a sword.
• Don’t snap towels at passing cops.
• Don’t throw an angry cat straight up.
• Don’t lick dry ice.
• Before you leap upside down onto a trampoline, make sure it’s right
side up.
• Don’t pour salt in your eyes.
• Your body has the correct number of holes in it. Don’t make anymore.
• Don’t microwave yourself.
• Don’t chase a bear into the woods to get a close-up photo.
• Don’t swallow toothpaste.
• Don’t chew Tylenol.
• Don’t bathe in gasoline.
• Don’t sneak up to a stallion and whack it on the rump.
• Don’t drink water that comes from swimming pools, puddles, bathtubs,
dishpans, sewage pipes, radiators, oceans, acid rain, or toilet bowls.
• Don’t stick body parts into electrical outlets.
• Don’t listen to music from the Spice Girls.
• Don’t lick toads, bulls, or jellyfish.
• Don’t go swimming in a well.
• Rake leaves, not people.
• Shovels are for digging holes in the ground, not the floor of your
house.
• Contrary to popular opinion, you’re not supposed to strip the
protective rubber coating off electrical wires before plugging them in.
• If you want to chew gum, buy some. Don’t use the gum from underneath
the seats at schools and movie theaters even though it’s free.
• Don’t kick stone walls very hard without wearing thick-soled shoes or
boots.
• Even if you need to get downstairs quickly, don’t jump out of a
window - - use the stairs.
• When using an acetylene torch, don’t feel the flame to see if it’s
sufficiently hot.
• Better yet, stay away from acetylene torches altogether.
• Walking barefoot in the sand is good. Walking barefoot on a cactus
is bad.
• Elvis is dead. Get over it.
• Wear clothes.
• Use a pot holder when removing items from the oven.
• If you’re on a ball field and someone shouts “heads up!” don’t
actually raise your head up. Cover it with your arms and duck.
• Don’t drink.
• Don’t drive.
• Don’t tie yourself to an airplane propeller.
• Don’t brush your teeth with a wire-bristled sanding wheel.
• When using a weed whacker, don’t hold the end with the wire.
• When using a blow gun - - something you should always have a very
good reason for doing anyway - - draw your breath before placing your lips
around the barrel.
• No matter how tempting it is to be one with nature, stay on the
outside of all fences at the zoo.
• Give me all your money.
• When sticking thumb tacks into bulletin boards, press on the flat
end.
• Toasters should be used to cook bread, not your hands.
• Under no circumstances should you ever reproduce.

by: samuel stoddard

Graduation Phobia

Its Vice graduation today. I didn't go even though my mom insisted that I go. I just have to make some lame excuse that I'm not feeling well. Never told anyone this before why I don't like graduations, but I really need to get this out and this is the best way of doing it, by posting it in the net where everyone is free to see it. Hehehe!

I think it was my high school graduation that cause this dislike for graduations. During this time we where having some financial difficulty so my parents were not in the best mood, but a week before that we all went to my brother and sister's graduation and you can see them with their smiles. Me on the other hand was a whole different story. My dad was the only one to see me walk the stage. I can remember that day so vividly. Everyone one was there with their parents and relatives all smiling ,all happy. I can see my dad filled with problems and wishing that the whole thing was over so we can go home. After the graduation we went home to see my mom screaming at everyone coz we were late for a party at a family friends. So without much as a congratulations we went to the party.

I'm not blamimg my parents for this or anything. We work that out a long time ago. But its still difficult for me to attend any graduation. Come to think of it I haven't attended any graduation since then. I guess the wounds are still here just covered with lies and smiles.

Song of the week

SICK CYCLE CAROUSEL

if shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
if it had a home would it be my eyes
would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
well here we go now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe that I have tried to beat this

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good

well I never thought I'd end up here never
thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe that I have tried to beat this

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this
sick cycle carousel
this is a sick cycle yeah
sick cycle carousel
this is a sick cycle yeah

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good

so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel

Something I did with a headache

Work has been a great opportunity for me to realize that I didn’t change as much as I thought I did. I thought that I stop caring about other people that I have become something that just exist in this earth without purpose in life. But teaching others even online has made me realize how much I love to help others and them just saying thank you to me has brought me great joy already.

I think most of the time when we get hurt, we try to run away from the things that cause us pain; we just want the hurting to stop. That why man has developed defense mechanism to overcome these problems and worries that we all face daily. However, these things are not always good.

For me example, I got hurt so many times that I don’t remember most of them and certainly not the details of those I do, but I build this wall around me that has cause me to forget on how to appreciate life itself.

Well life has a good way on knocking some senses to someone like me. It didn’t happen all of a sudden, no great apparition of angels that would tell me how good life is and that problems are just there make it beautiful and make one strong. Life made me meet many good people with lives so interesting that it made check up on my life. I saw others deal with same problems I have n different ways. It actually made me smile to realize I was normal that I wasn’t an outcast in this world, but I can actually count on others for help and I can also do it to them. As they say it, “life is wonderful”.

BANKAI!

Life is Wonderful!

Work has been a great opportunity for me to realize that I didn’t change as much as I thought I did. I thought that I stop caring about other people that I have become something that just exist in this earth without purpose in life. But teaching others even online has made me realize how much I love to help others and them just saying thank you to me has brought me great joy already.

I think most of the time when we get hurt, we try to run away from the things that cause us pain; we just want the hurting to stop. That why man has developed defense mechanism to overcome these problems and worries that we all face daily. However, these things are not always good.

For me example, I got hurt so many times that I don’t remember most of them and certainly not the details of those I do, but I build this wall around me that has cause me to forget on how to appreciate life itself.

Well life has a good way on knocking some senses to someone like me. It didn’t happen all of a sudden, no great apparition of angels that would tell me how good life is and that problems are just there make it beautiful and make one strong. Life made me meet many good people with lives so interesting that it made check up on my life. I saw others deal with same problems I have n different ways. It actually made me smile to realize I was normal that I wasn’t an outcast in this world, but I can actually count on others for help and I can also do it to them. As they say it, “life is wonderful”.

REPORT FOR THE MONTH APRIL

I had time to reflect on life lately. This is my report.

I’m still very much out of shape, started exercising a week ago, so results are still not visible. I also started controlling my food intake. This is very hard, considering I’m surrounded by good food.

I finally got a job as online English teacher for Koreans. Not the best job in the world for me but who am I demand such things. I've already passed the first week of training, so far everything is good. My fellow employees are really great; I had no problem in adjusting in the work area.

My love life is still practically non-existent due to my inability to put in effort into anything I'm supposed to do. Aside from the fact, I really suck in this dating thing. I really like someone and wanted to do something about it, but I have no idea what to do. So if anyone is reading this could you at least give me some advice. Thank you.

As for my mental well-being, I can honestly say, I'm perfectly normal in the standards of our society. Quirks and minor neurotic conditions still exist, but everyone has them, so no problem there I think.

Financially speaking, I’m still bankrupt. At least, now that I have a job income will start coming in soon. Unfortunately, half of it now goes to some stuff I’ve wanted to buy for a very long time. There goes the savings.

Spiritually speaking, I’m still lacking a great deal. I’m having a hard time forgiving myself (IDIOT!). But at least I’m way better compared a couple of months ago, when the very idea of God loving me and wanting me to come back to his presence was unacceptable.

And yes, I have a new nickname: BRAD. I know it’s weird that I have that nickname but who am I to argue with my boss. So there you have it, you may now call me Brad and laugh at the same time.

Fortune cookie

Your Fortune Is

Never have sex with a stranger unless you are stranger than them.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

Just to make everyone smile!!!

Insecurities

Some people just suprise me with their insecurities. Now, I'm a person who has lots of insecurities in life so that makes me tolerant of others, but this one defys all explanation. First I haven't seen or talk to his wife for months now, no contact whats so ever. So no reason for him to text me or insult me.

Honestly, I really am becoming irritated. I have a life now and I'm trying to stay away from any problems. I have enough of my own, and I'm not gonna pick up a rock and hit myself in the head, that's just plain stupid. And for crying out loud!!! you her married already!!! I will not stoop to your level.

I just needed to get that out. Don't want ruin my day.

Remember

Remember
by Christina Georgina Rossetti

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

Lanie a friend of Dionne recommended this poem. I really like it. Thanks!!!

It Lives!!!

Far Away - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore


So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

Congratulations!!!

Randy finally propose to Kat. He's finally getting married, well the long wait was worth it.
Congratulations to both of you !!!

Summer Headache

ANG SAKIT NG ULO KO!!! It's been days now since I have this headache. Tried everything to get rid of it but it seems to come back after an hour or so. I've been sleeping most of the day. Maybe its just the heat that giving me this headache. Been taking a bath more often than I use too. Summer na nga talaga. Sobrang init talaga.

I'M GOING TO BE RICH!!!

Your Birthdate: October 8

Watch out Donald Trump! You've got a head for business and money. You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet. A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job. Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss. Your strength: Your undying determination Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle Your power color: Plum Your power symbol: Dollar sign Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Now if i can find a way to make this true.

YIDDISH PROVERBS

Some proverbs to live by, thanks to the Jews.


-Two at the feast of the chicken: me and the chicken.

-A man should live if only to satisfy his curiosity.

-A fool is his own informer.

-Better a steady dime than a rare dollar

-A heavy purse makes a light heart.

-A dead man is mourned seven days, a fool his life time.

-Your health comes first-you can always hang yourself later.

-One good deed has many claimants.

-Tell an ass by his long ears, a fool by his long tongue.

-“Thou hast chosen us from among the nations”-why did You have to pick on the Jews?

-When a fool holds his tongue, he too is thought clever.

-When a poor man gets to eat chicken, one of then is sick.

-“Rejoice not at thy enemies fall”-but don’t pick him either.

-When a mother calls her child “bastard”, you can take her word for it.

-With luck, even your ox will calve.

-The girl who can’t dance says the band can’t play.

-If things don’t get better, depend on it, they will get worse.

-If God so wills it, even a broom can shoot.

-With money on your pocket, you are wise and you are handsome and you sing well, too.

-Three things grow overnight: profits, rent, and girls.

-Truth rests with God alone, and a little with me.

-He is wondering if a flea has a navel.

-It is easier to spot faults in others than virtues in oneself.

-Rather die in hunger; I’d sooner eat a roast.

-A rich miser and a fat goat are of no use until they are dead.

-God loves the poor and helps the rich.

-O Lord, give me a good excuse!

-God will provide-if only God will provide until He provides.

-Treat me like a rabbi and watch me like a thief.

-If I dealt in candles, the sun wouldn’t set.

-Spare us what we can learn to endure.

-“For dust thou art, and unto dust shall thou return”-betwixt and between, a little drink wouldn’t hurt.

-Dying while young is a boon in old age.

-No man suffers for another sins-he has enough of his own.

-They are madly in love, he with himself, she with herself.

-Ever since dying came into fashion, life hasn’t been safe.

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Redhead Jester. Where You Lived: New Zealand. How You Died: The Plague.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You don't really value loyalty. In your opinion, friendship should be earned. If you don't agree with someone, it doesn't matter how close you are. You'll let them (and everyone else know) exactly what you think. Honesty: You don't really value honesty. You do value getting your way, no matter what. And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem. A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!) Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount. You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take. Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need. But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You value humility highly. You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly. Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

Voices

There I did it. I actually posted what I was feeling last night and told her to read it. I thought she knew where my blog is, but she was thinking it was in friendster. I actually ran out credits for my cell phone so I couldn’t text her. So I thought of calling my mom and ask her to give the address, but my mom said she was a little busy and couldn’t give her the message (Note: My mom and her work in the same place). Two minutes later, the phone rang and it was her, my mom actually told her to call me (note to self never ask your mom for help, even how little it is, with a girl). I panic; my mind was screaming “You IDIOT!!! Why did you have to post that in the net and ask her to read it!!!?” then I gave her the address. I jokingly said that maybe after this she may never talk to me ever, but she said she’ll call afterwards and give her reaction.

It’s twelve o’ clock, she’s fast asleep now. I actually called her house to check on her. Maybe she forgot to call back or maybe something else. I can actually hear the voices in my head singing with Awie’s voice “TANGAAAAAAAAA!!!”

Johari's Window

Brings back a lot of memories in college. I always wanted to know what people think about me please give some time to answer thanks

http://kevan.org/johari?view=Urim

Still can't make a link here, so just copy paste na lang po. thanks!!!

Confessions

Just finish watching the wedding singer (Yes, it took me all these years to be able find time to watch it.). There were two scenes that really inspired me. The first one, was when Adam Sandler’s friend (forgot the name) said that when you found someone you love, you should never let it go. The second one is the song he sang to Drew Barrymore on the plane.


I Wanna Grow Old with You - Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
It would be so nice,
Growin' old with you

I'll miss you, kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you.


I want to be with her, just talking to her makes me forget all of my problems in life. I really don’t know her that much, but everything I learn about her makes me want to know more and I’m enjoying every second of it. This is of course, is all unintentional. I just want to be friends at first. I was just following an advice my friend gave me, which is to get out of my comfort zone and get to other know other people and be friends with them. Who would have thought I would find someone I wanna grow old with.

I know, I found someone I love, but I’m too scared to do something about it. I worry too much of what would happen in the future that it makes me not do anything. I guess, I’m just scared of getting hurt and fear things that I shouldn’t fear in the first place. Now, people might think that it’s just stupid for me to realize these things by just watching a movie, but that’s life. Great things do come from small things.

I really know I have fallen for her. She’s the last thing in my mind at night and the first thing I think about when I wake up. She’s not perfect person, I know, heck she has a lot of short comings, but I love her in spite of all those things. I also did a lot of stupid things, like saying I don’t like people who do this and she ending up being one of them. I guess I’ll end up eating my words.

I know your reading this (I actually asked you to.) coz honestly, I don’t know how to say this to you in person. Every time I try to say the words, it just disappears in my mouth. “Sabi ko sa’yo di ako marunong manligaw eh.” Now, on how this simple reaction to a movie turns into a love confession is a mystery to me. I’m just writing on how I feel, so the train of thought is really random.

KEANNA SPEAKS

SA LAHAT NG MGA NALOLONGKOT...


Keanna (in fury): Sinabi ko bang ipagtanggol mo'ko? Lahat na lang ng
mga housemates kailangang mag-adjust para intindihin ka. Ang hirap
kasi sa'yo napaka-KFC mo........ KSP pala."

Keanna: "Di ko alam na pinag-uusapan ako kasi ba't naman ako nila
paguusapan?di ko naman bertdey"

Keanna: "Andami kong pimples wala kasing moisturizer eh"
Rico: "Ano ?"
Keanna: " Bakukang..andami kong bakukang(pertaining to her
pimples)"
Rico: " Anong bakukang?"
Keanna: "Insekto..(tapos sabay hipo sa mukha niya)"

Keanna" "Buti na lang pinaligo na tayo, akala ko kasi sa Sabado pa
puwedeng maligo. Paano kaya sila matutulog non?"
( now, i dont get this. tayo tapos sila?)

Keanna to Koya: (About not taking bath) Pakiramdam ko po kasi hindi
na ako FRESH.

Keanna: "Rustrum!!"
Roxie: "Rustom hindi Rustrum!"
Keanna: *deadma mode" pakealam mo? mayaman ako sa letter R!

Keanna: (habang nagwawalis) "Hindi ako makatulog na madumi ang bahay
kasi. tapos mahilig pa kayong magkape. gusto ko tuloy kayong paluin"

Keanna: Ang hirap kaya mag-dishwasher

(Keanna ay nagpa-fashion show sa harap ng mga housemates habang nagpo-
pose)
Keanna - "Dapat pala ay mag-pouch ako"
Housemates - "Pout hindi pouch( tapos halakhakan)"
Keanna - "Eh ano yung pouch past tense"

(RULE: Bawal galawin ang furnitures ng wala akong pahintulot)
Keanna: edi bawal pala gamitin yung rocking chair? kasi gagalaw yun

Keanna: "John Prats! John Prats! Kunin mo nga yung chicken."
(hahhahahahh! Full name talaga? )

Keanna: (reading the rule book) si big bra.. brother ang magbibigay
sa inyo ng mga kakailanganing gamit...(thinks)... e bat di natin
makita
ung kamay ni big bradir eh sya pla magbibigay...

ZANJOE: Yung kapatid ko ZANDRO...
KEANNA: Lahat kayo start sa 'S'??

Keanna: "Ay naku wala na pag-asa tayo mag-modern times. Ito pa din
ang toothbrush...Talagang back to BISIKS tayo

Keanna - "Streppers ako" (stripper)


YOU CAN'T JUST STOP LOVING HER FOR BEING NATURAL...

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When I Am Dead, My Dearest

When I Am Dead, My Dearest
by Christina Georgina Rossetti

When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet;
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.

I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
Sing on as if in pain:
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember,
And haply may forget.


A very beautiful poem,"sniff".

Sick!!!

Been sick for a couple of days now. A very bad combination of asthma and colds. really feeling like crap, but at least my head is still functioning.

Test!!!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

You Are Death

You symbolize the end, which can be frightening. But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul. You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life. Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be. Your fortune: Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself. Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of. But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them. Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Are The Wheel of Fortune

You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth. You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life. Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things. Big things tend to happen to you more than other people. Your fortune: Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it. You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way. Big things and big changes are about to come your way. And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest.

What Tarot Card Are You?

BAYWALK

Finally! after the months of not hanging out with each other (Yes, we see each other every sunday in church, but we have to wear our halos there). We finally found some time to go out. Hope this happen more often.

I have no idea whos idea was this.

This was after the food cravings. Look how sated we are.

Me, Chelle, my brother Vice, Lhen, Uny, Rose, and JV.

FACTS ABOUT LOVE

My sister gave me this list, no idea why but it is really funny and true.

1.If you meet a woman, and you like her, then she...
-has a boyfriend
-is a lesbian
-has many friends she prefers to you
-doesn't notice you're there

2.If a girl likes you, then you won't know before she has lost her interestin you and it is impossible to get her back.

3.If you meet a girl who likes you, and you like her, and she doesn't have aboyfriend, then she will have one within the week, and it isn't you.

4.The only way to win a girl is to take her love for granted (if you keepquestioning it, she'll get tired of you).

5.If you take love for granted, everything will just go to hell.

6.If you don't have a girlfriend, there's always someone to remind you about it.

7.If you know a girl, date her, etc. etc. and in the end tell her that youlove her, you won't hear from her again for the rest of your life.

8.About who picks you up:
-If you're heterosexual, then homosexuals will try to pick you up.
-If you're homosexual, then heterosexuals will try to pick you up.
-If you're bi-sexual, then noone will try to pick you up.

9.If you have a friend who knows a girl who is desperately looking for a boy,he'll splice her with someone else.

10.About finding love:
-If you hope that you have found love, you'll get very disappointed.
-If you think that you have found love, you're wrong.
-If you know that you have found love, you have been misinformed.
-If you have found love, you won't know about it before it is lost.

11.There's always someone who is happy for his/her entire life, and it isn'tyou.

12.If you both love something, she'll hate it next week.

13.About winning/losing:
-If you don't have anything to lose, you won't win.
-If you have something to lose, you'll lose it.
-If you don't have anything to win, you'll win so that you can losemore.

14.If she's having a good time, it's not because of you.

15.About dating:
-If she didn't say anything, she'll bring her boyfriend she never toldyou about.
-If she arrives with her girlfriend, it's because she wants some kind ofprotection, not to put the two of you together.
-If she comes alone, it's because she looks at you as a friend, andthere isn't a chance in the world you'll ever be more

Happy Valentine's

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!!! May all of you find that person that you can't live without. For those who have found that someone cherish every moment spent and never take it for granted. Love is one thing nobody seems to understand but everybody yearns for it, even the most jaded and cynical of us in this world secretly needs to love and to be love in return.

Sometimes in our quest for love, we take for granted the love that surrounds us. The one that comes from people we never took time to notice. I myself have made that mistake. I been blindly been seeking out something I thought was love without realizing that I was surrounded with the one thing I’ve been looking for.

Now I’m grateful to all those who loved, and love, and will love me. You made life worth living.

TEN THINGS I LOVE BEING A PILIPINO

A friend ask me to list things i love being here in the pilipino. Took me awhile to figure out what i like coz "there are so many things I love being a pilipino". Most or all these things are not original from me some are things I've learn from and heard from others. So here they are in no particular order:

1. The Barrel Man, for those who don't know what a barrel man is it's a wooden figure of an indian inside a barrel, and if you lift the barrel, "toink!" something comes pops out that I do not want to remember (emotional trauma).

2. The Bulalo. I love sucking the bone marrow out of those pig knuckles, the cholesterol is at it again.

3. The world is my urinal! Yes, Pilipino Males still do it. They still mark their territory by peeing on walls, post, trees (actually, any vegetation that is enough to cover it.), and cars.

4. Streetfoods, from fishball, taho, samalamig to quek-quek, bopis, tokneneng, iud, adidas to the really " I really need a booster shoot for hepatitis a, b, to c.

5. When the world is in chaos, there is political instability, the market is down, the value of money is down and prices are skyrocketing, when everyone in the is panic. It's just an ordinary day here in the Philippines.

6. In the face adversary, pilipino's would laugh their way out of it. Yes, we would just laugh at it. Now imagine what we are doing during times of plenty.

7. We are the only people that responds to pssts and hoy. And we know who is being called.

8. Our names, more precisely our nicknames. Imagine seeing 50 years old men and women name boy, totoy, baby, nene, etc. Also who could forget len-len, bong-bong, ten-ten, etc...

9. Traffic here in manila. An american friend once commented that the philppines has the most parking space in the world, coz all the cars are always parked.

10. Lastly, ME! of course this country won't be the same without me. So backed off assholes!

RANTING

TANGINANG BUHAY ITO!!!

I just wanted to shout it out. well that felt good.

I've been in angst mode lately, so it's really affected my life. The problem is I have no idea why I'm feeling this. Maybe, I can't figure out a way to say my feelings to this girl I really like. I've been acting like a jerk when she around (like we see each other a lot), but thats the point when those rare moments comes up, my tongue begins to say words that would embarass anyone. Or I got low grade in trigonometry eventhough I studied until my mind stop working.

Well enough of these, time for some fun.
I'm going to do what's right and live my life to the fullest
MAGVIVIDEOKE AKO!!!
hehehe!( that was quick, from depress to happy)

Tongue Tied

I have to admit it! There nothing I could do about it. I have to confess "TORPE AKO!!!" Its true, yes I can express myself at times but when it comes to a girl i like, I either don't say what i want to say or blurt the most embarassing thing I could say. There! now everybody knows why in the world I'm still alone. Now if i could only a way to get over this.

Maybe I'll just sing. It always work for some. So here it goes....

Hehehe! just realized, nobody can here me. In case you're wondering here what i have been singing.


Why Don't You And I Lyrics

Since the moment I spotted you,
Like walking around with little wings on my shoes,
My stomach's filled with the butterflies,

Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I'd got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied,

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take,
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around,

Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied.

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

Slowly I begin to realize,
This is never going to end
Right about the same time you walk by,
And I say 'Oh here we go again',
Oh!

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

So I'll say why don't You and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say you why don't You and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

Who Are You? Who? Who? Who?

Just finish watching CSI season 1 to 4. Man! It was the best, gonna watch all over again and I have to hunting for the other seasons. Fell in love with Jorja Fox (a.k.a Sara Sidle). My cousins laughing at me coz i really find her hot, but what the heck i love her. Though sometimes, she kinda reminds of someone I really like or is it the other way around. i don't know. well, here that song again

who are you? who,who,who?

WATER DOG

Last saturday was the chinese new year's eve, and the AEGIS open meet where I hanged out some friends. we were dicussing the chinese zodiac signs and I got curious about mine and here is mine.


Dog people are loyal and honest and obedient, guardians of the house at night. They can be counted on to keep secrets and for always doing the right thing. They can be emotionally distant and do not mix well in social gatherings where they are often seen as wallflowers. They do better with one-on-one relationships and find happiness in the happiness they bring to others, such as finding the most perfect gifts for their friends. While it is true that they have sharp tongues and are a bit stubborn and eccentric, in a work situation they tend to work very well with other people. What is more, they always seem to have money and make excellent leaders. Because of their high moral stance, they are inspiring beyond measure.

Water Dogs are real charmers, easily attracting friends and colleagues into their inner circle. Handling the ins and outs of human relations is so easy for them! They know how to smooth over any personal situation with their kind, honest, easy-going nature. Always empathetic, always rational, their ability to play Devil's Advocate helps open up whole new ways of approaching problems and finding solutions. Their views on life are expansive because of an ingrained wanderlust which has taken and will continue to take them to exotic locales about the globe. They adapt like chameleons to new environments and new people and their lives are all-encompassing, full of rich adventure. Financial and career success comes to the Water Dogs later in life -- just watch these late bloomers burst open! Regarding their love life, when it comes to dating and romance, their temperature ranges from hot to cold, from one extreme to another. Sometimes they want a commitment, other times they run Geronimo. But, when true love finally comes, and it will, they have it made. Their relationships are filled with good honest communication and genuine kindness and total caring for their partner. Marriage will be as firm as the Rock of Gibraltar.

Gifs!!!

I've been trying to put gifs in my blog, but it doesn't seem to work. Must find someone to teach me how this work.

I'm getting old (I'm only 23)! Feeling aches and pain that didn't exsists before. Must go to spa one of this days. Now if i can only find the time.

SHOWING ALL YOUR CARDS

I've always been a firm believer of being honest of what you truly are. Lately, I'm i've become someone who is "what you see is what you get". Unfortunately, I found out that you can be really too honest or too trusting. Maybe, Im the kind of guy that nobody would like for being plainly me. Maybe I always need that shroud of mystery around me (ok, I'm going to stop now. Self-pitying again).

What the hell! I like who I am and if they have a problem with that it's not my fault anymore. Yes, I did a lot stupid things in life and I am pretty messed up in life, but that's who I am, that what makes me Urim Hernandez. I can't change that for anyone, been doing that for all my life, I think its my turn now to be who I really am.

A sick, demented, depressed, messed-up bastard who just want to be happy and loved.

TIME HEALS ALL THINGS.

Well its been more than a year since then so i'm glad to say i'm happy with my life. Never felt so happy for awhile. I can honestly say "all is well" with my life. Yes, there are problems, but there is nothing i can't handle. Thanks to all who stuck with me everything, and to all i meet and help me along the way. My gratitude is yours always.

Now if i can only find a girl to be with. Nights are getting lonely. hehehe

CHRISTMAS PIC

A little late, but better late than never.


The Hernandez Clan, well most of it.


Noche Buena!!! The reason for the extra pounds

Can't Stop Singing!!!

This is starting to be a trend now in my head. These songs are playing regularly in my head. Heck!!! at least they're good.

LEMON TREE

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree


"Back 2 Good"

It's nothing, it's so normal you
Just stand there I could say so much
But I don't go there cuz I don't want to
I was thinking if you were lonely
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know
At least not to the point that we would think so

Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep it under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good

This don't mean that, you own me
This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell
But things worked out just like you wanted too
If you see me out you don't know me
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room
To figure out just what I'm going to do

And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like
They do
It's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like
They do
But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good

Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with
Somebody else
Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides
Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're
The same
And we're all grown now, but we don't know how
To get it back to good

Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking 'bout
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep this under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now
There's no getting back to good

LOVE LOST

We have to part ways. I didn't want too, but it was necessary. If we stayed together who knows what might happen and i'm not really in the position to make another rash decision. So i just agreed with her decision. She was right in the first place. So I'm right here alone again but at least happy that i made the right choice and was spared from the pain and sorrow i might experience. And for her, my thanks, and maybe someday things will be different. :)